As some of you may know, I work for my dad at the family business with my two brothers. It seems like I've always got an appt for something, between going for regular neuro follow ups, getting new MRIs, regular pcp visits to work on getting the right antidepressant and dose, and I've had a couple eye appts to get my double vision on the way to corrected. I always let my family know whenever an appt is made.
I had two appts this week, and when I went to tell my dad I was leaving yesterday for the last one, he yelled at me in front of a customer how I've always got something and how I shouldn't even work! He was the one who forced me into it! I actually can't even handle it with my constant fatigue, but I live with it because I have no other choice. Then, any time I miss a day or have an appt, my dad and brothers are always making comments about how easy I have it and how I never do any work. I am so angry and frustrated right now, I refused to go in today. I've got enough to deal with and that just made things ten times worse.
Clearly nothing I do or say will ever make them understand my situation. I've given up because it'll just never happen. Going elsewhere isn't an option either because I'd never be able to keep a job (or get one for that matter, nobody would hire me when I was looking). I just don't know what to do anymore. Between dealing with the MS to putting up with family drama, I've gotten to the point where I just don't care about anything anymore. There are so many nights that I go to bed and wish I wouldn't wake up. What are you supposed to do when you get to that point? I have no idea what I can do to even attempt to make things a little better.
I had two appts this week, and when I went to tell my dad I was leaving yesterday for the last one, he yelled at me in front of a customer how I've always got something and how I shouldn't even work! He was the one who forced me into it! I actually can't even handle it with my constant fatigue, but I live with it because I have no other choice. Then, any time I miss a day or have an appt, my dad and brothers are always making comments about how easy I have it and how I never do any work. I am so angry and frustrated right now, I refused to go in today. I've got enough to deal with and that just made things ten times worse.
Clearly nothing I do or say will ever make them understand my situation. I've given up because it'll just never happen. Going elsewhere isn't an option either because I'd never be able to keep a job (or get one for that matter, nobody would hire me when I was looking). I just don't know what to do anymore. Between dealing with the MS to putting up with family drama, I've gotten to the point where I just don't care about anything anymore. There are so many nights that I go to bed and wish I wouldn't wake up. What are you supposed to do when you get to that point? I have no idea what I can do to even attempt to make things a little better.
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