First of all, let me apologize for what will probably be a long, rambling post. I've been trolling the boards for a few weeks, but I've finally decided to post something myself in hopes of finding a few friends on here that understand my situation.
A little bit about me... I am a 30-year-old female and I live with my fiance (we've been together 11 years this March!) and our 9-year-old daughter. They are the absolute loves of my life. My fiance works full-time, while I worked as a cocktail waitress 3-5 nights a week until Thanksgiving when I severely sprained my ankle. Not working for 3 months has obviously hindered us financially. I finally got the okay to go back to work the week after next, but now that I've got this other health issue rearing its ugly head, I find that nearly impossible to even think about.
A few days after New Year's, while I was still laid up and on crutches, my right hand started to tremor. I didn't get concerned until it had been a few days, and then my left hand start to tremor as well. About a week later, my good leg felt asleep all day and was very weak. This only lasted about a day or so. I had also developed weird back pain and facial numbness over the course of the next couple weeks, so I headed to the ER. They did lumbar and pelvic x-rays for my back and a head CT. All came back clear, so they sent me home with braces for my wrists (they diagnosed me with carpal tunnel from over-use of the crutches) and enough pain-meds to kill a horse for my back. As we were leaving, though, the doctor told me to keep an eye on my symptoms over the next month, as it could be MS, but he highly doubted it.
Over the next few days, my symptoms would get better, then worse, then better-- very inconsistant. I started having eye issues and dizziness, so I called the doctor. I don't have insurance, so I go through our county clinic. Anyway, I went in, and the doctor told me it was probably all nerves since he couldn't see anything physically wrong with me. He ordered a ton of blood tests just to be safe, including a vitamin D and thyroid test. To quote the nurse, my tests came back "more perfect than perfect." I went back in a week later, and he referred me to an opthamologist and neurologist. My neurology appointment is May 20. He recommended coming in the following week so his colleague could have a look at me as well. I did, and she highly suspects MS. She did prescribe Lexipro to help with my crazy anxiety, but I can't tell any difference yet.
Since the doctor, I have been experiencing crazy spasms all over my body, spasicity in both legs, and weakness in my right leg and hands. And all I want to do is sleep! I'm due for a night of theater tonight with my friend-- we've been looking forward to it forever-- but I'm not even that excited now. I just feel so crummy.
I think my fiance may be in some sort of denial or genuinely thinks there's nothing wrong. He keeps telling me that once I get back to work I'll feel much better. He has been super sweet, but last night he expressed to me his frustration over not being able to make me feel better no matter what he does. Everytime I try to talk to him about how scared I am, he tells me he'll be here for me no matter what and changes the subject. His mom passed away from pancreatic cancer two years ago, and he sort of acted the same way with her. Supportive but distant.
I have told some friends and a few family members, who are all either completely freaking out and making it worse or are telling me it's all in my head. For now, I feel like I'm stuck in limbo and wasting everyday because I can't function like I want to. I can't even do proper exercise because of my ankle! So incredibly frustrating.
Thanks to anyone who actually read this incredibly long thing. I'm a mess. Any support would be truly appreciated.
A little bit about me... I am a 30-year-old female and I live with my fiance (we've been together 11 years this March!) and our 9-year-old daughter. They are the absolute loves of my life. My fiance works full-time, while I worked as a cocktail waitress 3-5 nights a week until Thanksgiving when I severely sprained my ankle. Not working for 3 months has obviously hindered us financially. I finally got the okay to go back to work the week after next, but now that I've got this other health issue rearing its ugly head, I find that nearly impossible to even think about.
A few days after New Year's, while I was still laid up and on crutches, my right hand started to tremor. I didn't get concerned until it had been a few days, and then my left hand start to tremor as well. About a week later, my good leg felt asleep all day and was very weak. This only lasted about a day or so. I had also developed weird back pain and facial numbness over the course of the next couple weeks, so I headed to the ER. They did lumbar and pelvic x-rays for my back and a head CT. All came back clear, so they sent me home with braces for my wrists (they diagnosed me with carpal tunnel from over-use of the crutches) and enough pain-meds to kill a horse for my back. As we were leaving, though, the doctor told me to keep an eye on my symptoms over the next month, as it could be MS, but he highly doubted it.
Over the next few days, my symptoms would get better, then worse, then better-- very inconsistant. I started having eye issues and dizziness, so I called the doctor. I don't have insurance, so I go through our county clinic. Anyway, I went in, and the doctor told me it was probably all nerves since he couldn't see anything physically wrong with me. He ordered a ton of blood tests just to be safe, including a vitamin D and thyroid test. To quote the nurse, my tests came back "more perfect than perfect." I went back in a week later, and he referred me to an opthamologist and neurologist. My neurology appointment is May 20. He recommended coming in the following week so his colleague could have a look at me as well. I did, and she highly suspects MS. She did prescribe Lexipro to help with my crazy anxiety, but I can't tell any difference yet.
Since the doctor, I have been experiencing crazy spasms all over my body, spasicity in both legs, and weakness in my right leg and hands. And all I want to do is sleep! I'm due for a night of theater tonight with my friend-- we've been looking forward to it forever-- but I'm not even that excited now. I just feel so crummy.
I think my fiance may be in some sort of denial or genuinely thinks there's nothing wrong. He keeps telling me that once I get back to work I'll feel much better. He has been super sweet, but last night he expressed to me his frustration over not being able to make me feel better no matter what he does. Everytime I try to talk to him about how scared I am, he tells me he'll be here for me no matter what and changes the subject. His mom passed away from pancreatic cancer two years ago, and he sort of acted the same way with her. Supportive but distant.
I have told some friends and a few family members, who are all either completely freaking out and making it worse or are telling me it's all in my head. For now, I feel like I'm stuck in limbo and wasting everyday because I can't function like I want to. I can't even do proper exercise because of my ankle! So incredibly frustrating.
Thanks to anyone who actually read this incredibly long thing. I'm a mess. Any support would be truly appreciated.
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