Im so frustrated, angry,depressed, n just tired of always being sick. I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes or thinking it's all in my mind. I don't know what to do n don't have anyone to talk to who would understand. when my right Side went numb close to my 30th birthday I just thought maybe it was a medication I took n brushed it off until it became painful to walk to the point of limping.
when I finally had an Mir n saw the neurologist I was just told it could possibly be m s but I only had 2 sessions n there isn't any medication for it anyway. I left in tears with no hope n still had pain, numbness, n tingling in my arms n legs so I just had to deal. slowly the pain subsides n numbness got a little better but never quite the same.
so a year or two went by n just a few symptoms, always tired but that can b many things, always stomach problems n that also can b many things. the numbness seems to b there all the time but I'm getting used to it. started having another relapse as they call it I guess. I,'ve always had this memory problem n seemed off balance but things started getting worse like just going grocery shopping I would get dizzy n feel like I was going to pass out n my insides just felt so shaky but not visible on the outside.
it seemed difficult to reach for a glass on the counter almost like I had to say out loud to my brain "pick up the glass". things got harder at work., mainly my focus n my vision just seemed off most of the time. I couldn't n still can not localize what I'm feeling. I feel completely alone n so mad to not be able to have a normal life. I'm so jealous when I see someone at the gym n think they can go all the time so y can't I.
I will be fine for a solid week n b all happy n motivated then bam, something sets me back. I finally went to a different Neuro n had another Mir n I did have more lessions n some on my spine so she just said yes I would say you show signs of m s but the only thing u can do is injections to help with the progression. again I left crying n just dI'd not want to see anymore dr....anyway I have no more hope for feeling better or living a satisfying life. I just want to feel fine everyday I'm not even hoping for feeling good just fine will work.
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when I finally had an Mir n saw the neurologist I was just told it could possibly be m s but I only had 2 sessions n there isn't any medication for it anyway. I left in tears with no hope n still had pain, numbness, n tingling in my arms n legs so I just had to deal. slowly the pain subsides n numbness got a little better but never quite the same.
so a year or two went by n just a few symptoms, always tired but that can b many things, always stomach problems n that also can b many things. the numbness seems to b there all the time but I'm getting used to it. started having another relapse as they call it I guess. I,'ve always had this memory problem n seemed off balance but things started getting worse like just going grocery shopping I would get dizzy n feel like I was going to pass out n my insides just felt so shaky but not visible on the outside.
it seemed difficult to reach for a glass on the counter almost like I had to say out loud to my brain "pick up the glass". things got harder at work., mainly my focus n my vision just seemed off most of the time. I couldn't n still can not localize what I'm feeling. I feel completely alone n so mad to not be able to have a normal life. I'm so jealous when I see someone at the gym n think they can go all the time so y can't I.
I will be fine for a solid week n b all happy n motivated then bam, something sets me back. I finally went to a different Neuro n had another Mir n I did have more lessions n some on my spine so she just said yes I would say you show signs of m s but the only thing u can do is injections to help with the progression. again I left crying n just dI'd not want to see anymore dr....anyway I have no more hope for feeling better or living a satisfying life. I just want to feel fine everyday I'm not even hoping for feeling good just fine will work.
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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