NO. One does not exist.
Good thing this place has spell check, grammar check, and preview. It makes me sound so much more intelligent.
I have been in a fog for three days now. I lay awake off and on at night scaird of a relapse. I guess I got used to it being well for so long.
I think the part that frightens me the most is when the time I was caught by my wife trying to go to church naked with five socks on one foot and trying to change the TV with a shoe. And yesterday outside in my peppermint boxers. When I am going through those kind of episodes they seem to be acceptable and normal. I don't know I am in that state. I am just frightened of what I might do.
I even skip church and social events for fear of what I might say or do. I don't worry so much about me as I do about my wife in that situation. She's aware and is tough but I would hate to bring that kind of embarrassment to her. She has been so good to me, works her butt off for me and I love her so dearly for all the sacrifices she makes for me.
This is the only place I can hide and feel normal and accepted. I feel I can share and we can laugh together because we all understand each other. It brings me great sadness that I have withdrawn so much from the world. I am used to me medical field team leader on medical mission to Central and South America, a convention speaker/educator and teacher. I've been on TV and on radio. Now when we go to a restaurant I insist on sitting in the corner with my back to the wall in case I do something stupid with my wife in front of me and guides me.
I am contemplating stopping my Neuros. That is except for their every six month check up. They are doing nothing for me. I am not on any medication prescribed by them and my Primary is very sharp and closely monitors my labs as well as a medicine management shrink.
I have gotten so used to my MS pattern that I don't need them anymore unless I run down the street naked or something like that and need hospitalization.
I am just thinking about it. I have not made a decision yet. My next appt. will tell me a lot and I plan to ask them why should I keep coming except for my annual MRI. Insurance with a dx of MS plays big in that as because I get a lot of perks.
Love you all. I pray that your symptoms are less this week. Also as you know how much talk and write depends on how much antagonism I get from Gomer and what help I can shed depends upon how often I check in here. I feel selfish that I have taken up so much space for "ME." I keep hoping I say something that will help someone else.
Dave Tampa, Florida
"Journeyman"
Good thing this place has spell check, grammar check, and preview. It makes me sound so much more intelligent.
I have been in a fog for three days now. I lay awake off and on at night scaird of a relapse. I guess I got used to it being well for so long.
I think the part that frightens me the most is when the time I was caught by my wife trying to go to church naked with five socks on one foot and trying to change the TV with a shoe. And yesterday outside in my peppermint boxers. When I am going through those kind of episodes they seem to be acceptable and normal. I don't know I am in that state. I am just frightened of what I might do.
I even skip church and social events for fear of what I might say or do. I don't worry so much about me as I do about my wife in that situation. She's aware and is tough but I would hate to bring that kind of embarrassment to her. She has been so good to me, works her butt off for me and I love her so dearly for all the sacrifices she makes for me.
This is the only place I can hide and feel normal and accepted. I feel I can share and we can laugh together because we all understand each other. It brings me great sadness that I have withdrawn so much from the world. I am used to me medical field team leader on medical mission to Central and South America, a convention speaker/educator and teacher. I've been on TV and on radio. Now when we go to a restaurant I insist on sitting in the corner with my back to the wall in case I do something stupid with my wife in front of me and guides me.
I am contemplating stopping my Neuros. That is except for their every six month check up. They are doing nothing for me. I am not on any medication prescribed by them and my Primary is very sharp and closely monitors my labs as well as a medicine management shrink.
I have gotten so used to my MS pattern that I don't need them anymore unless I run down the street naked or something like that and need hospitalization.
I am just thinking about it. I have not made a decision yet. My next appt. will tell me a lot and I plan to ask them why should I keep coming except for my annual MRI. Insurance with a dx of MS plays big in that as because I get a lot of perks.
Love you all. I pray that your symptoms are less this week. Also as you know how much talk and write depends on how much antagonism I get from Gomer and what help I can shed depends upon how often I check in here. I feel selfish that I have taken up so much space for "ME." I keep hoping I say something that will help someone else.
Dave Tampa, Florida
"Journeyman"
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