I have been going back and forth for a long time trying to decide if he husband is a selfish jerk, or if it's a result of MS related issues(mostly pain).I don't know what to do anymore. He starts fights over nothing, constantly. He's irrational, and can't remember things he said 5 minutes ago, which makes for an extremely frustrating fight! He escalates, and escalates every little thing to the point where our fights drag out for days.
He's refuses to stop disrespecting me long enough to have a conversation to discuss things. He'll just be sarcastic and say something like "yeah yeah it's all my fault, blame me again" and we get no where. I have given up everything in my life to care for this man. I push myself as far as I can on a daily basis to make sure he doesn't have to lift a finger.I understand he can't take me to dinner(pain), or movies, etc, but I just want to be loved and treated with respect.
When we are fighting he will say stupid things about our daughter, that I know he does"nt mean and will completely ignore her at time.How do I let that continue? I can't leave him, I love him, he is the father or my daughter, and he could"nt take care of himself to be honest.
I have lived like this for 7 years now. Every single special event in that time has been ruined by some stupid irrational fight. It is not effecting holidays, parties, etc for my daughter. I get so upset I have panic attacks and can't physically keep it together enough to leave with her.
I feel stuck, lonely, depressed and lost. Yes I know that sounds like depression, but it's also situational depression and It's not an option to see a counselor(he refuses to go), I have no one to watch my daughter and I"ve tried to find ones who will come to our home.
This was just my rant, I have no one else to talk to. Thanks for listening
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He's refuses to stop disrespecting me long enough to have a conversation to discuss things. He'll just be sarcastic and say something like "yeah yeah it's all my fault, blame me again" and we get no where. I have given up everything in my life to care for this man. I push myself as far as I can on a daily basis to make sure he doesn't have to lift a finger.I understand he can't take me to dinner(pain), or movies, etc, but I just want to be loved and treated with respect.
When we are fighting he will say stupid things about our daughter, that I know he does"nt mean and will completely ignore her at time.How do I let that continue? I can't leave him, I love him, he is the father or my daughter, and he could"nt take care of himself to be honest.
I have lived like this for 7 years now. Every single special event in that time has been ruined by some stupid irrational fight. It is not effecting holidays, parties, etc for my daughter. I get so upset I have panic attacks and can't physically keep it together enough to leave with her.
I feel stuck, lonely, depressed and lost. Yes I know that sounds like depression, but it's also situational depression and It's not an option to see a counselor(he refuses to go), I have no one to watch my daughter and I"ve tried to find ones who will come to our home.
This was just my rant, I have no one else to talk to. Thanks for listening
**Post broken into paragraphs by Moderator for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print.**
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