Normal feeling?

[valeriem2220]

I am one very small step away from being diagnosed with MS.
My Dr is simply waiting for another flare.
I have this urge almost need to just get away right now. I want to just go away for a while and be alone and forget about real life for a few days and forget that I don't feel good. I have been fighting for the last year to get an answer to what has been wrong with me and now that I am very close. I just don't want to know.
I think the fear has set in now that this is all getting so real. I am also having a very hard time knowing that I am going to have to do this alone. I am a single Mom and it scares me to death that I am going to have to be so strong just to get through my daily life some days. Even though I am already struggling and the only thing that will change is an entry in a Drs diagnosis box and a daily injection.

[billiejeane]

Totally a normal feeling. Totally. You want to go away and for that time away have kind of like a new identity?rite? So u don't have to be in your situation. Yep. So normal. Oh god I know how you feel. Tell me more?

[billiejeane]

I am one very small step away from being diagnosed with MS.
My Dr is simply waiting for another flare.
I have this urge almost need to just get away right now. I want to just go away for a while and be alone and forget about real life for a few days and forget that I don't feel good. I have been fighting for the last year to get an answer to what has been wrong with me and now that I am very close. I just don't want to know.

I think the fear has set in now that this is all getting so real. I am also having a very hard time knowing that I am going to have to do this alone. I am a single Mom and it scares me to death that I am going to have to be so strong just to get through my daily life some days. Even though I am already struggling and the only thing that will change is an entry in a Drs diagnosis box and a daily injection.

Sometimes I mad I even pursued a dx. If I could take it back,I wouldn't have gone to a neuro until absolutely necessary. And it may not have been necessary had I not known. My neuro did some blood work on me and my ana is speckled and off the charts. Im spose to go to a rheumy next thursday,and ya know what? Im not going. I dont wanna go. NOOOOOOOOOOOO desire to know. Ignorance is truly bliss.

[hope32]

Definitely a normal feeling. A lot of people go through the stages of grief when dealing with a diagnosis like this and the first stage is denial. And honestly, that can be healthy to some extent. Give yourself a little space, room to breathe, before you can start to process what all this will mean.

I know right now it seems like ignorance is bliss-I have totally felt that way in the past--but if you do get diagnosed and start the injections, you can do something to fight the disease rather than ignore it and give it more of a chance to do some damage.