Thank you!
Thank you all so very much! Think I’ve cleansed my insides with so many tears.
NeuroNixed Craig, you hit the nail on the head. Self –doubt, unworthiness, unlovable. It is so hard to stand in my truth of worthiness, confident and loveable, soooo hard (even before MS and overwhelmingly after).
45 and I have never been in love (I have some work to do!) I have been rejected each time because of MS (One date I had SUCH a great time… his friend saw us out and pulled him aside and asked “who is she, she is beautiful” His reply was “Isn’t she? I’ve wanted to ask her out for a while, but she’s done, she has MS”. He didn’t know I was in earshot. After dinner he asked me to go back to his place, I didn’t, and we have never spoken again.
I come apart dating, I can speak about what I used to do, accomplishments and I pretty much brush past the MS, like it’s just something I deal with… but I need more in my reserve mental account of what I do have to offer, otherwise when I don’t feel good, I disappear in self-pity party world. I know I put the good energy out initially and then a big cloud of but I’m not good enough next. You are helping me add positive talk in my head about what I have to offer, where I had none.
Thank you, Thank you….and sorry for going on and on…
Thank you all so very much! Think I’ve cleansed my insides with so many tears.
NeuroNixed Craig, you hit the nail on the head. Self –doubt, unworthiness, unlovable. It is so hard to stand in my truth of worthiness, confident and loveable, soooo hard (even before MS and overwhelmingly after).
45 and I have never been in love (I have some work to do!) I have been rejected each time because of MS (One date I had SUCH a great time… his friend saw us out and pulled him aside and asked “who is she, she is beautiful” His reply was “Isn’t she? I’ve wanted to ask her out for a while, but she’s done, she has MS”. He didn’t know I was in earshot. After dinner he asked me to go back to his place, I didn’t, and we have never spoken again.
I come apart dating, I can speak about what I used to do, accomplishments and I pretty much brush past the MS, like it’s just something I deal with… but I need more in my reserve mental account of what I do have to offer, otherwise when I don’t feel good, I disappear in self-pity party world. I know I put the good energy out initially and then a big cloud of but I’m not good enough next. You are helping me add positive talk in my head about what I have to offer, where I had none.
Thank you, Thank you….and sorry for going on and on…
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