Hello everyone,
I was wondering if I am the only person who gets very agitated and impatient in the evenings. I am usually the most patient person in the world. But with this most recent flare up of symptoms, I am finding myself a different person in the evenings.
I was the person who snuggled up with my two kids and sang to them and read them book after book (they each have their own special lullaby and bedtime story). We used to do prayers too. I just can't do it anymore. It makes me sick to my stomach at the person I am at night. I just feel so exhausted that I feel like I have this countdown timer that I am racing to beat so that I can get the boys to bed and finally lay down myself. My son asked me why I don't like his giggles anymore at night. It makes me feel just awful.
I talked to my Beau about it and he says that I have more patience then anyone he knows and lately I have been acting like he would be acting if he were me. That's not okay for me. I don't care if he thinks that my impatience is JUSTIFIED because the kids are tough to settle down and get snuggled up into bed. I know that it is up to me how they go to bed and whether the fall asleep happily or crying. My impatience causes me to yell and makes me not want to sing or read.
Augh! I could go on and on about how this makes me feel. I have thought about asking for something for it but what? It is like I am two hours short the energy I need to function at the level I am used to.
HELP! Does anyone know how I feel???
Amy
I was wondering if I am the only person who gets very agitated and impatient in the evenings. I am usually the most patient person in the world. But with this most recent flare up of symptoms, I am finding myself a different person in the evenings.
I was the person who snuggled up with my two kids and sang to them and read them book after book (they each have their own special lullaby and bedtime story). We used to do prayers too. I just can't do it anymore. It makes me sick to my stomach at the person I am at night. I just feel so exhausted that I feel like I have this countdown timer that I am racing to beat so that I can get the boys to bed and finally lay down myself. My son asked me why I don't like his giggles anymore at night. It makes me feel just awful.
I talked to my Beau about it and he says that I have more patience then anyone he knows and lately I have been acting like he would be acting if he were me. That's not okay for me. I don't care if he thinks that my impatience is JUSTIFIED because the kids are tough to settle down and get snuggled up into bed. I know that it is up to me how they go to bed and whether the fall asleep happily or crying. My impatience causes me to yell and makes me not want to sing or read.
Augh! I could go on and on about how this makes me feel. I have thought about asking for something for it but what? It is like I am two hours short the energy I need to function at the level I am used to.
HELP! Does anyone know how I feel???
Amy
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