I recently went back to work full time as a middle school science teacher. I was a teacher for years, then left for 5 years to be at home. I was hoping that it was going to be a little less demanding in preparing for the classes, however, I am overwhelmed. I've taught for years. I have MS (official diagnosis last October 2009) as well and am concerned with the level of stress that I have if it will encourage a relapse or exaceberation.
I have tried to step back from volunteering for certain things outside of school such as helping k-1 students at night and will step back from an upcoming Christmas production. Moreover, I am still a mother of a 4th grader, which demands my time. I feel like I'm failing her some because I'm not keeping up with her education as much as I used to because I'm trying to plan my work. My husband helps too. Then, I don't have much time at school to plan and we must tutor atleast once a week at my school, afterschool or before school. Now, other demands are on us regarding other activities and job obligations.
I am hoping to just give it a year, but everyday, I struggle with anxiety or depressed thoughts. I am feeling burned out after 2 months of work, tired, been out sick already from respiratory virus, and I recently started back on anti-anxiety meds. In addition, I take plaquenil to reduce the chance of me getting lupus, based on my rheumatologist. I was told by my ms specialist that stress can encourage problems with MS since my symptom may already be down, so I need to prioritize and if needed step back on some things.
I'm wondering if getting back on anxiety meds, that I was able to taper off previously, is worth this. I have some students that are disrespectful and my help in the class room is very limited, if any. I'm also using other resources such as mentoring, etc. to help me.
I guess I'm trying to see if someone out there has had the same struggles as I have with work and MS. In am just concerned that if I continue to work this way, will I encourage more lesions (my last brain MRI back in June 2010 was good, no new lesions). I don't want to feel like a failure in quitting in the middle of a school year. Moreover, letting go a helpful income for my family. Yet, I don't want to encourage any more health issues.
Thanks for your input.
I have tried to step back from volunteering for certain things outside of school such as helping k-1 students at night and will step back from an upcoming Christmas production. Moreover, I am still a mother of a 4th grader, which demands my time. I feel like I'm failing her some because I'm not keeping up with her education as much as I used to because I'm trying to plan my work. My husband helps too. Then, I don't have much time at school to plan and we must tutor atleast once a week at my school, afterschool or before school. Now, other demands are on us regarding other activities and job obligations.
I am hoping to just give it a year, but everyday, I struggle with anxiety or depressed thoughts. I am feeling burned out after 2 months of work, tired, been out sick already from respiratory virus, and I recently started back on anti-anxiety meds. In addition, I take plaquenil to reduce the chance of me getting lupus, based on my rheumatologist. I was told by my ms specialist that stress can encourage problems with MS since my symptom may already be down, so I need to prioritize and if needed step back on some things.
I'm wondering if getting back on anxiety meds, that I was able to taper off previously, is worth this. I have some students that are disrespectful and my help in the class room is very limited, if any. I'm also using other resources such as mentoring, etc. to help me.
I guess I'm trying to see if someone out there has had the same struggles as I have with work and MS. In am just concerned that if I continue to work this way, will I encourage more lesions (my last brain MRI back in June 2010 was good, no new lesions). I don't want to feel like a failure in quitting in the middle of a school year. Moreover, letting go a helpful income for my family. Yet, I don't want to encourage any more health issues.
Thanks for your input.
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