HI EVERYONE. I AM NEWLY DIAGNOSED WITH MS AND IM REALLY SCARED. IM 31, MARRIED WITH THREE KIDS, AGES 15, 12, AND 6. IM A MANAGER AT A MAJOR NON PROFIT REPRO HEALTH CLINIC.
ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I BEGAN HAVING BLURRED VISION IN MY LEFT EYE ONLY. A FEW DAYS LATER I STARTED HAVING NUMBNESS AND TINGLING IN MY LEFT HAND. I WENT TO THE ER BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS HAVING A STROKE. THE ER DOC RULED OUT A STROKE AFTER A BUNCH OF TESTS (CT SCAN, EKG, LABS) AND TOLD ME I SHOULD SEE MY PCP AND MAYBE HAVE AN MRI. I ASKED HIM WHY AN MRI, HE SAID TO RULE OUT SOMETHING LIKE MS. THAT WAS THAT. I WENT TO SEE MY DOC 2 DAYS LATER. SHE ORDERED AN MRI. ON WEEK LATER, I HAD AN MRI OF MY BRAIN. IT SHOWED TWO MASSIVE LESIONS IN THE LEFT SIDE. THE NEURO THAT I WAS REFERRED TO THEN ORDERED AN MRI OF MY SPINE. THAT ENDED UP SHOWING A LESION IN THE CERVICAL CORTEX OF THE SPINE. THE NEURO SAYS THAT NORMALLY, TWO INCIDENTS HAVE TO OCCUR TO MAKE A DIAGNOSIS OF MS, HOWEVER GIVEN THE PROGRESSION OF MY SYMPTOMS (I CAN NO LONGER FEEL MY LEFT HAND AND THE NUMBNESS AND TINGLING HAVE CONSUMED THE ENTIRE LEFT SIDE OF MY BODY) AND FAMILY HISTORY (MY MOTHER HAD MS, SHE WAS 24 WHEN DIAGNOSED) HE IS CERTAIN OF THE DIAGNOSIS. I AM SCARED. I DONT KNOW WHY THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME. I CRY ALL THE TIME. I HAVE PANIC ATTACKS ABOUT MY SYMPTOMS. I CANT EVEN PUT MY BRA ON BY MYSELF ANYMORE! THIS SUCKS! I HAD ORIGINALLY OPTED TO START AVONEX, BUT CHANGED MY MIND AFTER READING ABOUT THE SIDE EFFECTS. MY DOC SAID I COULD CHOOSE IV CORTISTEROIDS AND SPEND A FEW DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL, OR DO AN EXTREMELY HIGH DOSE OF ORAL STEROIDS (PREDNISONE) EVERY DAY FOR TWO WEEKS. I'VE CHOSEN THE PREDNISONE. I FEEL LIKE IT WILL BE THE LEAST DISRUPTUIVE TO MY BUSY LIFE. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION THAT A FEW MONTHS AGO MY HUSBAND WAS IN A HORRIFIC ACCIDENT AND BROKE NEARLY EVERY BONE ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HIS BODY (LITERALLY) AND YES, WE ARE NOW BOTH MESSED UP ON THE LEFT SIDE. I HAVE BEEN HELPING TO CARE FOR HIM SINCE HE'S BEEN HOME IN ADDITON TO CARING FOR THREE KIDS AND WORKING FULL TIME. THIS IS AN ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE. I JUST WANT TO WAKE UO ONE MORNING FEELING NORMAL AGAIN. WILL THAT EVER HAPPEN?
ABOUT A MONTH AGO, I BEGAN HAVING BLURRED VISION IN MY LEFT EYE ONLY. A FEW DAYS LATER I STARTED HAVING NUMBNESS AND TINGLING IN MY LEFT HAND. I WENT TO THE ER BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS HAVING A STROKE. THE ER DOC RULED OUT A STROKE AFTER A BUNCH OF TESTS (CT SCAN, EKG, LABS) AND TOLD ME I SHOULD SEE MY PCP AND MAYBE HAVE AN MRI. I ASKED HIM WHY AN MRI, HE SAID TO RULE OUT SOMETHING LIKE MS. THAT WAS THAT. I WENT TO SEE MY DOC 2 DAYS LATER. SHE ORDERED AN MRI. ON WEEK LATER, I HAD AN MRI OF MY BRAIN. IT SHOWED TWO MASSIVE LESIONS IN THE LEFT SIDE. THE NEURO THAT I WAS REFERRED TO THEN ORDERED AN MRI OF MY SPINE. THAT ENDED UP SHOWING A LESION IN THE CERVICAL CORTEX OF THE SPINE. THE NEURO SAYS THAT NORMALLY, TWO INCIDENTS HAVE TO OCCUR TO MAKE A DIAGNOSIS OF MS, HOWEVER GIVEN THE PROGRESSION OF MY SYMPTOMS (I CAN NO LONGER FEEL MY LEFT HAND AND THE NUMBNESS AND TINGLING HAVE CONSUMED THE ENTIRE LEFT SIDE OF MY BODY) AND FAMILY HISTORY (MY MOTHER HAD MS, SHE WAS 24 WHEN DIAGNOSED) HE IS CERTAIN OF THE DIAGNOSIS. I AM SCARED. I DONT KNOW WHY THIS IS HAPPENING TO ME. I CRY ALL THE TIME. I HAVE PANIC ATTACKS ABOUT MY SYMPTOMS. I CANT EVEN PUT MY BRA ON BY MYSELF ANYMORE! THIS SUCKS! I HAD ORIGINALLY OPTED TO START AVONEX, BUT CHANGED MY MIND AFTER READING ABOUT THE SIDE EFFECTS. MY DOC SAID I COULD CHOOSE IV CORTISTEROIDS AND SPEND A FEW DAYS IN THE HOSPITAL, OR DO AN EXTREMELY HIGH DOSE OF ORAL STEROIDS (PREDNISONE) EVERY DAY FOR TWO WEEKS. I'VE CHOSEN THE PREDNISONE. I FEEL LIKE IT WILL BE THE LEAST DISRUPTUIVE TO MY BUSY LIFE. I SHOULD ALSO MENTION THAT A FEW MONTHS AGO MY HUSBAND WAS IN A HORRIFIC ACCIDENT AND BROKE NEARLY EVERY BONE ON THE LEFT SIDE OF HIS BODY (LITERALLY) AND YES, WE ARE NOW BOTH MESSED UP ON THE LEFT SIDE. I HAVE BEEN HELPING TO CARE FOR HIM SINCE HE'S BEEN HOME IN ADDITON TO CARING FOR THREE KIDS AND WORKING FULL TIME. THIS IS AN ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE. I JUST WANT TO WAKE UO ONE MORNING FEELING NORMAL AGAIN. WILL THAT EVER HAPPEN?
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