Serious Cognitive Impairment .....
My husband, 58, was diagnosed with MS 6 years ago a month after we married. And to be honest, I had postponed our wedding previously because of anger and relationship issues that never got resolved before I put the date back on with a simple ceremony. He was moody, "never smiled", or rarely shared emotions other than anger or frustration...and I am a very upbeat woman.
I know, why did I marry him...it is a long story. I have had an intense life..mother of seven, relocated to New York (for him), had a horrific divorce, etc. etc. Now only one teenager at home since I moved to NY.
Over the years, he has struggled with many of the physical disabilities of MS, from tremendous fatigue, sensitivity to heat, spasticity, urinary/bowel problems, tremors in his left hand, balance problems, etc. etc...all complicated by a plate in his foot from a very serious accident 9 years ago when he fell and was run over by a forklift. And he needs my help with cutting his meats for dinner, physical outside work he can no longer do, etc. etc.
However, the greatest adjustment has been the cognitive impairment which has been severe for my husband...alongside his temperament which is "flat"...with no communication...or just anger. He had a neuro-psychological exam 2 years ago and it showed tremendous impairment, and he is going for another one this week.
He functions on many levels like a child; often has little regard for hygiene unless I remind him. He lost his license about a year ago (his driving was very scary for the last 3 years) after he failed miserably a DMV test. I realized it may sound as if I just rambled on...what I finally want to say...what is so painfully difficult for me is knowing what part is the MS, what part is his character / selfishness...because he displays no capacity for any empathy or appreciation for another...no reference outside of his own.
He has known for 6 years about his MS -- and I have begged for smiles, etc...tried to humor him, etc. He can laugh on the phone with friends. And yes, he is in counseling. And yes, I am a co-dependent!!!!
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
My husband, 58, was diagnosed with MS 6 years ago a month after we married. And to be honest, I had postponed our wedding previously because of anger and relationship issues that never got resolved before I put the date back on with a simple ceremony. He was moody, "never smiled", or rarely shared emotions other than anger or frustration...and I am a very upbeat woman.
I know, why did I marry him...it is a long story. I have had an intense life..mother of seven, relocated to New York (for him), had a horrific divorce, etc. etc. Now only one teenager at home since I moved to NY.
Over the years, he has struggled with many of the physical disabilities of MS, from tremendous fatigue, sensitivity to heat, spasticity, urinary/bowel problems, tremors in his left hand, balance problems, etc. etc...all complicated by a plate in his foot from a very serious accident 9 years ago when he fell and was run over by a forklift. And he needs my help with cutting his meats for dinner, physical outside work he can no longer do, etc. etc.
However, the greatest adjustment has been the cognitive impairment which has been severe for my husband...alongside his temperament which is "flat"...with no communication...or just anger. He had a neuro-psychological exam 2 years ago and it showed tremendous impairment, and he is going for another one this week.
He functions on many levels like a child; often has little regard for hygiene unless I remind him. He lost his license about a year ago (his driving was very scary for the last 3 years) after he failed miserably a DMV test. I realized it may sound as if I just rambled on...what I finally want to say...what is so painfully difficult for me is knowing what part is the MS, what part is his character / selfishness...because he displays no capacity for any empathy or appreciation for another...no reference outside of his own.
He has known for 6 years about his MS -- and I have begged for smiles, etc...tried to humor him, etc. He can laugh on the phone with friends. And yes, he is in counseling. And yes, I am a co-dependent!!!!
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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