In my case, it seems like one giant mourning process. Constantly losing abilities and having to accept they won't be back. I think there's a big difference between mourning and depression. In my mind, depression is more a case of giving in. The mourning aspect is more of a process. It seems what they refer to as depression is more, "You really don't get it and what it's like to constantly have to accept a part of you is no longer available." I don't get depressed, but depending on what's new, it might throw me off a little as I learn to accept one more thing.
I don't hate life or look forward to death. I don't feel sorry for myself. I haven't thrown in the towel. Yes, I get frustrated when I can't do something I once could. Yes, I may have periods of a lot of change and be more touchy in terms of mood.
I am not going to be as upset that I can't pee my name in the snow compared to not being able to play guitar. The same applies to suicide. I remember a quote from a book, "I'm not the kind of guy who will sit in a bell tower and shoot people, but I understand the guy who does." Do I think they're all depressed? No. They may not fear death and find it preferable to what is coming.
With that said, I am in no way saying depression doesn't exist. I'm just curious how others define it.
I don't hate life or look forward to death. I don't feel sorry for myself. I haven't thrown in the towel. Yes, I get frustrated when I can't do something I once could. Yes, I may have periods of a lot of change and be more touchy in terms of mood.
I am not going to be as upset that I can't pee my name in the snow compared to not being able to play guitar. The same applies to suicide. I remember a quote from a book, "I'm not the kind of guy who will sit in a bell tower and shoot people, but I understand the guy who does." Do I think they're all depressed? No. They may not fear death and find it preferable to what is coming.
With that said, I am in no way saying depression doesn't exist. I'm just curious how others define it.
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