I've been diagnosed for 1.5 months now. I am going out for supper this week with a couple of friends that I haven't seen since the diagnosis. I am having a really hard time talking about it without crying, so I am nervous to see them. I also feel really awkward around people when I try to make small talk. People ask me how my summer has been going and I pretend like things are going well and I feel like such a liar. I am scared of telling people about the diagnosis because I am worried that they will act differently around me, that they won't know what to say or do and will feel awkward. I have told a few friends and some of them do seem awkward - I don't need or want pity or counselling or false reassurance from them that everything will be fine. I am actually not sure what I want from people when I tell them. Maybe if I knew that and could tell people what I need from them then it would be easier for them too because they would know what to say.
I am also struggling with how and when to tell people and how many people to tell. I am scared of people thinking I will not be able to do my job properly or that my appointments will take too much time away from work.
Right now no one would be able to tell that something is wrong, except that I am probably more withdrawn and sad, but my physical symptoms are not apparent to anyone but me.
I am also struggling with how and when to tell people and how many people to tell. I am scared of people thinking I will not be able to do my job properly or that my appointments will take too much time away from work.
Right now no one would be able to tell that something is wrong, except that I am probably more withdrawn and sad, but my physical symptoms are not apparent to anyone but me.
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