Im 29 and recently stopped my medicines. Tragically I lost the love of my life in the process.
We were together just over 2 years and well in March I got off treatment to get pregnant.
Apparently I suffer from love addiction. He became my whole world as our lives are very similar. He said he thought I was his soul mate. We moved really fast, I had known him since Jr. High school and even stood next to him in the school choir. We jumped on the chance to move out together. Chaos ensued.
So when I quit the treatment, figured out I was drinking alot (we enabled each other) and an addict to many other things apparently. I have been seeing a psychologist since April and well the one nice thing is I found a way to manage MS holistically for now. So far I feel good, I am off treatment, I am addiction free...except for him. I warned him about me coming of the medicines and he didnt seem to mind so I did it. The depression and the arguing was horrible, he didnt even give me the 6 mos we talked about needing. Its not a bad thing tho cuz I dont know that he could have handled a child with me anyway. He raged at me and finally a broke. I moved out of that toxic home. I still am in love with him tho.
Im 29, live with my folks, have this very strict organic diet I am supposed to follow, am heart broken and work in a machine shop w many men all of whom I am not even remotely interested in. Ive dabbled in online dating, never met anyone, dont trust anyone. Who wants this baggage?
I am feeling really low today. My world revolves around having someone in my life to love. I have my parents still but I am afraid if I wont get past this. I miss my Andre.
I never thought I was messed up in the head...am I?
Again, 29, single, living at home, working for my family. I feel so alone. Life isnt supposed to be THIS hard. Sucks for me.
We were together just over 2 years and well in March I got off treatment to get pregnant.
Apparently I suffer from love addiction. He became my whole world as our lives are very similar. He said he thought I was his soul mate. We moved really fast, I had known him since Jr. High school and even stood next to him in the school choir. We jumped on the chance to move out together. Chaos ensued.
So when I quit the treatment, figured out I was drinking alot (we enabled each other) and an addict to many other things apparently. I have been seeing a psychologist since April and well the one nice thing is I found a way to manage MS holistically for now. So far I feel good, I am off treatment, I am addiction free...except for him. I warned him about me coming of the medicines and he didnt seem to mind so I did it. The depression and the arguing was horrible, he didnt even give me the 6 mos we talked about needing. Its not a bad thing tho cuz I dont know that he could have handled a child with me anyway. He raged at me and finally a broke. I moved out of that toxic home. I still am in love with him tho.
Im 29, live with my folks, have this very strict organic diet I am supposed to follow, am heart broken and work in a machine shop w many men all of whom I am not even remotely interested in. Ive dabbled in online dating, never met anyone, dont trust anyone. Who wants this baggage?
I am feeling really low today. My world revolves around having someone in my life to love. I have my parents still but I am afraid if I wont get past this. I miss my Andre.
I never thought I was messed up in the head...am I?
Again, 29, single, living at home, working for my family. I feel so alone. Life isnt supposed to be THIS hard. Sucks for me.
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