Firstly, I apologize for yet another 'Debbie Downer' post.
When I have days with this much pain in my calves and numbness in my arms, I feel afraid.
My limbs were the most important tools in my trade, other than being able to relate to the 1000 plus pound horses, each with an individual personality.
Each time I have one of these days when I am able to only lie in bed, I start asking myself if there will be permanent, irrevocable damage.
I will and beg my body to stop hurting, to regain endurance and strength. Still, those attributes evade me.
It is very distressing and I feel there is nothing more I can do to control these dang nerve pathways. I know many are suffering more than I. I know many have lost more mobility than I. I feel for all of us here and I am so sorry for each and every one of you who suffer.
If you have these same fears about losing strength and functionality, have you found a way to let go of what we can't control and remain positive and with hope?I truly pray anyone reading this had a much better day than I and in advance, I appreciate any insight.
When I have days with this much pain in my calves and numbness in my arms, I feel afraid.
My limbs were the most important tools in my trade, other than being able to relate to the 1000 plus pound horses, each with an individual personality.
Each time I have one of these days when I am able to only lie in bed, I start asking myself if there will be permanent, irrevocable damage.
I will and beg my body to stop hurting, to regain endurance and strength. Still, those attributes evade me.
It is very distressing and I feel there is nothing more I can do to control these dang nerve pathways. I know many are suffering more than I. I know many have lost more mobility than I. I feel for all of us here and I am so sorry for each and every one of you who suffer.
If you have these same fears about losing strength and functionality, have you found a way to let go of what we can't control and remain positive and with hope?I truly pray anyone reading this had a much better day than I and in advance, I appreciate any insight.
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