Well, I knew this was coming but pushed hard to try to work through aling with a bit of denial.... I resigned from my job due to my MS. This is my first week no longer employed.
For several weeks leading up to this I shed buckets of tears. I was sad and mad at my body/brain for failing on me. I absolutely loved my career, profession, clients, coworkers and company and did not want this to be the outcome. Leaving work has been a huge loss to my identity and my place as a contributing member of society. I like being out and about and lately the disease has been isolating....except for all the medical professionals I continue to see. Sigh.
My STD ran out in early December and thus, I really had to make the decision. I had gone back to work 2-3 days per week, but on my off days I basically either laid in bed or on the sofa or went to doctor appointments. I tried to walk or do one thing each day (and sometimes had to as I have a teen daughter at home with a hubby travel most weeks). All and all, It was just not good for me or my family.
My company’s STD plan automatically tranferrred me to the LTD process, which includes applying for SSDI. Mentally it is hard for me to think of myself there as I remain hopeful this is just bump in the road. (Although I don’t think I can go back to a job full time.)
That said, there is a pre-existing clause (3 mos. prior to elegibility date) in the policy so I am wondering if I will even be covered. Based on a quick review of a preliminary paperwork involved, it will become a full time job to complete the appropriate documentation to even make a reasonable LTD or SSDI application.
My blessing is that I am in my late 50s. I have been so blessed to have been able to have work for the past decade since my diagnosis and especially since having this disease from what I guess was at least starting around age 30. I truly am appreciative for that as I know so many have to stop working much sooner.
Overall, I know this is the best decision for me and my family but the loss and isolation of not working is really a struggle for me right now. (Of course, it is only week one! LOL!). I am sure there are some on here that can relate...any experience and ideas are always welcome. Thank you for letting me share this update.
Best to you all - MGM
For several weeks leading up to this I shed buckets of tears. I was sad and mad at my body/brain for failing on me. I absolutely loved my career, profession, clients, coworkers and company and did not want this to be the outcome. Leaving work has been a huge loss to my identity and my place as a contributing member of society. I like being out and about and lately the disease has been isolating....except for all the medical professionals I continue to see. Sigh.
My STD ran out in early December and thus, I really had to make the decision. I had gone back to work 2-3 days per week, but on my off days I basically either laid in bed or on the sofa or went to doctor appointments. I tried to walk or do one thing each day (and sometimes had to as I have a teen daughter at home with a hubby travel most weeks). All and all, It was just not good for me or my family.
My company’s STD plan automatically tranferrred me to the LTD process, which includes applying for SSDI. Mentally it is hard for me to think of myself there as I remain hopeful this is just bump in the road. (Although I don’t think I can go back to a job full time.)
That said, there is a pre-existing clause (3 mos. prior to elegibility date) in the policy so I am wondering if I will even be covered. Based on a quick review of a preliminary paperwork involved, it will become a full time job to complete the appropriate documentation to even make a reasonable LTD or SSDI application.
My blessing is that I am in my late 50s. I have been so blessed to have been able to have work for the past decade since my diagnosis and especially since having this disease from what I guess was at least starting around age 30. I truly am appreciative for that as I know so many have to stop working much sooner.
Overall, I know this is the best decision for me and my family but the loss and isolation of not working is really a struggle for me right now. (Of course, it is only week one! LOL!). I am sure there are some on here that can relate...any experience and ideas are always welcome. Thank you for letting me share this update.
Best to you all - MGM
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