Sorry I just need to vent and it seems writing on a message board makes me feel better. I actually have never posted here before. I am more of an observer. I was diagnosed last November from Optic Neuritis. I honestly laughed at the doctors when they told me. It wasn't until May when I woke up and my left arm was dead and from then on I didn't laugh too much.
Since then I have had 4 exacerbations. The latest one has been I have no feeling from my ankle down and I cant move it. I am 39 year old male that has a great wife and 5 gorgeous kids from the ages of 5-12. Unfortunately, I own a Landscape company that requires me to be hands on.
It was the worst 6 months of my life, I could barely get through a 3 hour day let alone 8-10. The last week of work before Winter I had to have fallen 6 or 7 times for no damn reason. I feel like I talk to my Neurologist every day. I have been on Copaxone for 8 months and it hasn't done anything. He also took me off Vicodin and put me on Methadone 5X a day. Granted it really helps the pain and lets me move in the morning but that stuff scares me to death.
I am just not the same "Kevin" anymore and like the title states it just plain sucks. I honestly am not depressed, as I am a very confident and pretty sure of himself kind of guy but this is taking a toll on me recently. Its only been a year I cant imagine doing this everyday for the rest of my life. As I am sitting here typing probably nonsense to you good people I have no idea why I even started writing in the first place, lol. So I guess I will stop.
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Since then I have had 4 exacerbations. The latest one has been I have no feeling from my ankle down and I cant move it. I am 39 year old male that has a great wife and 5 gorgeous kids from the ages of 5-12. Unfortunately, I own a Landscape company that requires me to be hands on.
It was the worst 6 months of my life, I could barely get through a 3 hour day let alone 8-10. The last week of work before Winter I had to have fallen 6 or 7 times for no damn reason. I feel like I talk to my Neurologist every day. I have been on Copaxone for 8 months and it hasn't done anything. He also took me off Vicodin and put me on Methadone 5X a day. Granted it really helps the pain and lets me move in the morning but that stuff scares me to death.
I am just not the same "Kevin" anymore and like the title states it just plain sucks. I honestly am not depressed, as I am a very confident and pretty sure of himself kind of guy but this is taking a toll on me recently. Its only been a year I cant imagine doing this everyday for the rest of my life. As I am sitting here typing probably nonsense to you good people I have no idea why I even started writing in the first place, lol. So I guess I will stop.
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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