I have posted here a few times but I still feel so confused and scared. I was diagnosed in November 2012 with RRMS. I know I have had it for at least 10 years but the symptoms came and went and didn't bother me much.
2 years ago I was incapacitated with dizziness, lack of balance and double vision. The symptoms got better but never went away. I had an MRI done and they said it was OK.
A year later the dizziness got worse again as did my balance and I have occasional double vision. I also have urinary hesitancy, a burning tongue and crying jags. That is when another MRI was done. The first one did, in fact, show lesions. The second one showed more lesions and I also have one on my spinal cord. Aubagio had just come out and I started on it.
So.... I have been on Aubagio for several months. I have good days and bad days but now I have burning feet and the dizziness is very bad for the past two days. I don't know if I am just having a "bad spell" or a flare up (meaning the Aubagio isn't working) or if my symptoms are progressing. I am scared to death.
I don't want to be a complainer all the time but I think I am really new to this and I am still in grief. I feel that who I was died and that there is nowhere to go from here but down.
My mom had MS and was in a wheel chair till she died. There was no medication then and she was even labeled mentally ill for a time and hospitalized and given shock treatments. I know that isn't my story but it did have a horrible impact. All my life, MS was my worst nightmare.
2 years ago I was incapacitated with dizziness, lack of balance and double vision. The symptoms got better but never went away. I had an MRI done and they said it was OK.
A year later the dizziness got worse again as did my balance and I have occasional double vision. I also have urinary hesitancy, a burning tongue and crying jags. That is when another MRI was done. The first one did, in fact, show lesions. The second one showed more lesions and I also have one on my spinal cord. Aubagio had just come out and I started on it.
So.... I have been on Aubagio for several months. I have good days and bad days but now I have burning feet and the dizziness is very bad for the past two days. I don't know if I am just having a "bad spell" or a flare up (meaning the Aubagio isn't working) or if my symptoms are progressing. I am scared to death.
I don't want to be a complainer all the time but I think I am really new to this and I am still in grief. I feel that who I was died and that there is nowhere to go from here but down.
My mom had MS and was in a wheel chair till she died. There was no medication then and she was even labeled mentally ill for a time and hospitalized and given shock treatments. I know that isn't my story but it did have a horrible impact. All my life, MS was my worst nightmare.
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