I am having such a hard time at work right now, and no one will listen to me or take me seriously about how bad it has gotten for me.
My Dr says work is good therapy, which I do agree with the way he thinks. He does not want me sitting at home and just wasting away. That I agree with and hope to be able to work as long as possible.
BUT
I do work in a factory and need to be able to think critically and quickly at times. I am having a very hard time doing this.
I must say I was always very proud of myself because I was a smart girl, a quick learner and could do anything or figure out anything that was put in front of me, unless it required muscle...I could never do that...I am not a physically strong girl, but mentally very strong.
Not anymore. I am having major problems with memory and just every day thinking now. I do often have to just stop mid work and think about what I am doing again. This should come naturally as I have been there for almost 8 years now in the same job.
Many people at work don't know of my diagnosis and even the ones that do don't understand all of the battles I have to fight with it.
There are quite a few people at work, I am going to say mainly the mechanics, they already think they are above us anyway, that think it is their God given right to treat people they feel are below them like they are stupid. They treat some people very badly and make fun of people that are slower to learn or slower to get a job done.
I have become one of those people that has been the brunt of their jokes lately. Never in my life have I experienced this. I do stick up for myself and I have had arguments with a couple of these people. Which makes my nights at work even more stressful.
It has gotten so bad that I went one night being called a "retard" to my face by a mechanic because I couldn't do something on a machine that I was never even taught. This happened again just last week. I was never trained on something I was doing but he thought I should just know because it was "easy" and me and the lady I was working with were treated very badly by him because we didn't know. I finally blew up. I told him off and his supervisor came to me later and asked me about what happened. I told him and he told me good job. This isn't my job to put HIS mechanic or HIS people in line because they feel they can make fun of others.
This issue is making me very depressed and making me absolutely HATE my job.
I am thinking about it now because I have to work the next three nights and I am dreading it.
I just hate mean people in general.
How do you deal with the changes that are happening?
I feel daily that I am "stupid" and I have never felt this way before.
My Dr says work is good therapy, which I do agree with the way he thinks. He does not want me sitting at home and just wasting away. That I agree with and hope to be able to work as long as possible.
BUT
I do work in a factory and need to be able to think critically and quickly at times. I am having a very hard time doing this.
I must say I was always very proud of myself because I was a smart girl, a quick learner and could do anything or figure out anything that was put in front of me, unless it required muscle...I could never do that...I am not a physically strong girl, but mentally very strong.
Not anymore. I am having major problems with memory and just every day thinking now. I do often have to just stop mid work and think about what I am doing again. This should come naturally as I have been there for almost 8 years now in the same job.
Many people at work don't know of my diagnosis and even the ones that do don't understand all of the battles I have to fight with it.
There are quite a few people at work, I am going to say mainly the mechanics, they already think they are above us anyway, that think it is their God given right to treat people they feel are below them like they are stupid. They treat some people very badly and make fun of people that are slower to learn or slower to get a job done.
I have become one of those people that has been the brunt of their jokes lately. Never in my life have I experienced this. I do stick up for myself and I have had arguments with a couple of these people. Which makes my nights at work even more stressful.
It has gotten so bad that I went one night being called a "retard" to my face by a mechanic because I couldn't do something on a machine that I was never even taught. This happened again just last week. I was never trained on something I was doing but he thought I should just know because it was "easy" and me and the lady I was working with were treated very badly by him because we didn't know. I finally blew up. I told him off and his supervisor came to me later and asked me about what happened. I told him and he told me good job. This isn't my job to put HIS mechanic or HIS people in line because they feel they can make fun of others.
This issue is making me very depressed and making me absolutely HATE my job.
I am thinking about it now because I have to work the next three nights and I am dreading it.
I just hate mean people in general.
How do you deal with the changes that are happening?
I feel daily that I am "stupid" and I have never felt this way before.
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