Hi everyone, it's been a while since I've posted. For those of you that don't know I was diagnosed over a year ago when I was only 18. I'm in college now and it's been very hard to adjust to this. I was diagnosed right before my sophomore year and started rebif about a week before school (this all was very traumatic for me I've been afraid of needles my entire life)
I somehow miraculously made it through my sophomore year, I feel like I just blocked it out and said I would handle it when I got home fpr the summer. Before the summer I had a follow up MRI which showed I had new lesions. After that I developed a panic disorder. I have panic attacks and can't drink caffiene anymore, it's really scary but still I pushed on and finished my sophmore year with the help of meds.
Over the summer I had another MRI and it was good results the meds are working!
Now in my junior year I feel alot of negativity. I was so happy to be home all summer it's like home is my rock I'm really close with my family and noone at school knows about my MS. I've been having a tough time lately. I feel alot of anxiety and sort of like there's an impending doom. Like since things are steady at the moment that something bad has to happen and is going to happen. I'm really feeling alot of anxiety my mom said she thinks I might have PTSD and that I deserve good things in life I shouldn't think everytime things are okay that something horrible will happen. Does anyone else ever feel like this? Does anyone think this could be PTSD? I feel like I just have alot going on I can't wait to be done school and be with my family to heal instead of running back and forth.
I just want to enjoy that things are good instead of thinking something bad is going to happen!
Thank you I just needed to vent!
I somehow miraculously made it through my sophomore year, I feel like I just blocked it out and said I would handle it when I got home fpr the summer. Before the summer I had a follow up MRI which showed I had new lesions. After that I developed a panic disorder. I have panic attacks and can't drink caffiene anymore, it's really scary but still I pushed on and finished my sophmore year with the help of meds.
Over the summer I had another MRI and it was good results the meds are working!
Now in my junior year I feel alot of negativity. I was so happy to be home all summer it's like home is my rock I'm really close with my family and noone at school knows about my MS. I've been having a tough time lately. I feel alot of anxiety and sort of like there's an impending doom. Like since things are steady at the moment that something bad has to happen and is going to happen. I'm really feeling alot of anxiety my mom said she thinks I might have PTSD and that I deserve good things in life I shouldn't think everytime things are okay that something horrible will happen. Does anyone else ever feel like this? Does anyone think this could be PTSD? I feel like I just have alot going on I can't wait to be done school and be with my family to heal instead of running back and forth.
I just want to enjoy that things are good instead of thinking something bad is going to happen!
Thank you I just needed to vent!
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