"The Answer"

by Donielle Brown, aka hubba617
10/25/07

Hi, my name is Donielle and  I've been married to my husband for almost nine years and we have two amazing little blessings, ages 5 and 2.   I was diagnosed August 30, 2007, but it truly has been a decade or more of questions.

When I heard my neurologist say, "You have multiple sclerosis," I don't think that I felt shocked or scared, just relieved I guess, at finally having an answer. Shortly after that, the word "answer" just kept floating in my head waiting for the rest of the words to put it together with. And then, in mere seconds, I knew what I needed to do. This is what I wrote........

It’s here.
The answer I’ve been waiting so long for.
It may have come in a very unexpected form,
But it’s an answer nonetheless.

Multiple Sclerosis means, “many scars.”
They come in forms other than
Just those it’s defined by.

This disease, this “answer,”
Affects you from head to toe,
On the inside and the out.
It also touches those you love
And those who love you.

I think what’s most amazing is that these “scars,”
The “scars” built up from the disease,
They aren’t even visible on the outside.

They are silent attackers.
They hurt our bodies
And they hurt our minds.

They give us pain
And make us feel so uncomfortable.

The worst part of it is
That right now
Nobody knows how to make it go away.
There is no cure,
Only possible, temporary, band-aids.

This answer was certainly
Not what I was expecting.
I don’t know what I was expecting.
I definitely wasn’t armed and ready.

Sometimes I don’t feel strong enough to tackle this,
This answer I had been waiting for.

I won’t let it win.
I will take this one day at a time.

Multiple Sclerosis,
The answer,
Not the end.


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