Hi everyone! So I was diagnosed in 2011 I was 14. I have double vision in my right eye I've had it for 2 years now. I've never had or felt anything else. honestly I don't think I have MS maybe I'm still in denial, but I've met so many MS patients and they're seriously struggling, unlike me I was really happy and positive until I started taking Avonex seriously I feel like I'm being tortured.
I got depression and I became suicidal I started cutting and pushing everyone away. I hate it when my parents treat me like I'm sick cause I'm not I'm fine. I did obviously get a MRI but I still think I don't have it. I read that double vision doesn't need medication. Oh and have I mention the pain and the horrible fever I get after the injections. My body is really weak and it won't get used to it. I can't go out on the weekends anymore and I refuse to tell my friends or anyone but my parents that I have MS.
I don't want anyone to treat me like I'm sick cause I'm not!!!!!! I stopped taking Avonex for two weeks cause I wanted to focus on my final exams and I ended up not taking them for a month. So yesterday my mom forced me to take it, I couldn't sleep I couldn't eat I just seriously wanted to die its really not fair.
Next week I'm getting another MRI so I'm really trying to be positive but I just can't, I told my parents that I don't want to take the injection next week but they will probably force me to it. the doctor gave me vitamin D once a week for 12 weeks. I drank it all at once and I almost choked to death. Didn't know it was that bad.
I really want to take depression pills but my parents think I don't need it, I do have the best parents in the world seriously they're always worried and they really love me but I treat them like crap and I feel so guilty about it.
I know I sound so negative but I feel like I'm seriously wasting my youth am I going to be like this all my life (I'm 16). depressed lazy and suicidal. I don't know anyone who has double vision like me so it would be nice to know that I'm not the only one
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I got depression and I became suicidal I started cutting and pushing everyone away. I hate it when my parents treat me like I'm sick cause I'm not I'm fine. I did obviously get a MRI but I still think I don't have it. I read that double vision doesn't need medication. Oh and have I mention the pain and the horrible fever I get after the injections. My body is really weak and it won't get used to it. I can't go out on the weekends anymore and I refuse to tell my friends or anyone but my parents that I have MS.
I don't want anyone to treat me like I'm sick cause I'm not!!!!!! I stopped taking Avonex for two weeks cause I wanted to focus on my final exams and I ended up not taking them for a month. So yesterday my mom forced me to take it, I couldn't sleep I couldn't eat I just seriously wanted to die its really not fair.
Next week I'm getting another MRI so I'm really trying to be positive but I just can't, I told my parents that I don't want to take the injection next week but they will probably force me to it. the doctor gave me vitamin D once a week for 12 weeks. I drank it all at once and I almost choked to death. Didn't know it was that bad.
I really want to take depression pills but my parents think I don't need it, I do have the best parents in the world seriously they're always worried and they really love me but I treat them like crap and I feel so guilty about it.
I know I sound so negative but I feel like I'm seriously wasting my youth am I going to be like this all my life (I'm 16). depressed lazy and suicidal. I don't know anyone who has double vision like me so it would be nice to know that I'm not the only one
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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