feeling unloveable

[meeegun]

tonight my roommate and her girlfriend were giggling in the bathroom as they were getting ready for bed. they sounded so happy and are days away from moving into an awesome apartment together. i am so happy for them, but also so envious of what they have. i started thinking "will i ever have that now that i have MS?" i have a g/f and she has been so amazing throughout this whole diagnosis shocker (did NOT see MS coming!!). i love her, but i still feel empty and sad and envious. i know its wrong but i can't help it. growing old with someone is a lot more complicated for me than it was a month ago. is she really *that* committed? am i? i just feel sad tonight i guess. that's all.