Hello..I'm a 45 year old nurse from Canada. 10 years ago I started exhibiting symptoms..neg MRI and spinal tap..fatigue, weakness etc persisted. I worked for an MD, had to stop working , was granted disability. Two years of struggling,then..I felt wonderful..symptoms disappeared..I went back to work as a visiting nurse and had two more great years..then..boom..blurred vision, paresthesia, weakness,,events occurring approx twice a year..fast forward to a year ago..due to constantly having " bad days".
I started working part time..in Oct of last year, I hung up my scrubs for good. During all that time, I did not see a neuro..not after the previous neg tests. His last consult with me had him recommend a psych assessment!! So I pretty much felt like I was losing my mind.. In the last 5 months, I have symptoms consistently. Legs encased in setting concrete, brain mush, pins and needles in left arm and leg, blurred vision,..and the FATIGUE..OMG!!
I had an MRI last week and finally going back to the neuro who I think thought I was crazy ,next month. What if the MRI is again negative? As a nurse, I have been taught to think in an either Its neg or pos mindset. I'm afraid, how can I get any kind of help without a diagnosis..I was told it was probable MS..I don't even recognize myself anymore..I miss my job..help..I'm sorry for rambling..I can't talk to my family..I don't want to stress them, and I hate to complain because I've cared for individuals with terminal illnesses..but is this how it is going to be from now on..how do you cope..help me..I'm so sad...and frustrated..
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I started working part time..in Oct of last year, I hung up my scrubs for good. During all that time, I did not see a neuro..not after the previous neg tests. His last consult with me had him recommend a psych assessment!! So I pretty much felt like I was losing my mind.. In the last 5 months, I have symptoms consistently. Legs encased in setting concrete, brain mush, pins and needles in left arm and leg, blurred vision,..and the FATIGUE..OMG!!
I had an MRI last week and finally going back to the neuro who I think thought I was crazy ,next month. What if the MRI is again negative? As a nurse, I have been taught to think in an either Its neg or pos mindset. I'm afraid, how can I get any kind of help without a diagnosis..I was told it was probable MS..I don't even recognize myself anymore..I miss my job..help..I'm sorry for rambling..I can't talk to my family..I don't want to stress them, and I hate to complain because I've cared for individuals with terminal illnesses..but is this how it is going to be from now on..how do you cope..help me..I'm so sad...and frustrated..
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