I was diagnosed in '09 & am still trying to decide if what I'm experiencing is in fact a relapse. I get a mri every year & if I'm having an decline in my cognition, physical abilities, etc...& the report always has the same findings..."no new lesions observed". I don't know what's happening when I go from having a decent amount of energy where I can clean up, run errands, prepare & cook meals, entertain my children, walk my 3 dogs 2.5 mi/day, etc...(clarify: I can't do ALL of these things every single day but most of them) The #1 thing I enjoy doing on a daily basis is getting out there & walking 2.5 mi/day at my local city park with my 3 dogs. Facing insurmountable stress every day from not being able to work, raising 2 teenagers & not getting out of the house much, going out on my daily walks is the only way I know how To unwind- it's like getting to push the reset button.
Then, usually without warning, my life comes to a grinding screeching halt...The fatigue that comes over me is so powerful & overwhelming...only thing comparable to it would be if I were in a coma. I don't possess the energy to do ANYTHING except exist! (and even that can feel like an impossible task) Just going to the bathroom is a chore...And walking 2.5 miles? Forget about it! Not on your life is that gonna happen. My speech is affected causing me to stammer, stutter as I'm pausing mid-sentence searching for those ever-so-elusive words I just can't seem to find...
Ugh...It's all just too much. Any time this happens, I notify the doctor, they do an MRI & it always says the same thing..."stable, no new lesions & no activity from the old ones" (or something like that). The time frame from being fine as a frog hair split 3 ways, to feeling like a living breathing corpse then back again feeling like a frog hair slit 3 ways usually takes a longggg couple of months.(yes. I know frogs don't have hair but just go with it)
So my question is...Can you have a relapse without any new lesions forming or any of the old ones lighting back up?
Thanks!
Then, usually without warning, my life comes to a grinding screeching halt...The fatigue that comes over me is so powerful & overwhelming...only thing comparable to it would be if I were in a coma. I don't possess the energy to do ANYTHING except exist! (and even that can feel like an impossible task) Just going to the bathroom is a chore...And walking 2.5 miles? Forget about it! Not on your life is that gonna happen. My speech is affected causing me to stammer, stutter as I'm pausing mid-sentence searching for those ever-so-elusive words I just can't seem to find...
Ugh...It's all just too much. Any time this happens, I notify the doctor, they do an MRI & it always says the same thing..."stable, no new lesions & no activity from the old ones" (or something like that). The time frame from being fine as a frog hair split 3 ways, to feeling like a living breathing corpse then back again feeling like a frog hair slit 3 ways usually takes a longggg couple of months.(yes. I know frogs don't have hair but just go with it)
So my question is...Can you have a relapse without any new lesions forming or any of the old ones lighting back up?
Thanks!
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