I'm sitting here, listening to the phone go off for the third time today, my boss calling, and I have no idea what to say. I stopped working full-time last year at another job because I just couldn't do it anymore. I figured that I could do SOMETHING, but no idea what would fit my criteria. Then, the perfect job fell into my lap about 6 months ago. My boss doesn't want to lose me. But the past couple of months it has gotten increasingly more difficult to do a lot of things. Physically and cognitively. Everyday, what can I do, not do. I can't keep a promise to have something done by a certain time. If I even remember to do it. Or get past the fear of screwing it up.
If I take the time and energy for the extras like yoga, chiropractor, acupuncture, swimming, etc, that may help me stay in shape, have less pain, maybe think better, what time does that leave for work? What about my home? At what point do the scales say I need to clean the floors, bathrooms, eat, shower ahead of work? Does anyone care? Or does work come first? My husband can't take over everything. I get about 6 hours a day to do what I want and need. That includes energy working, calls, doctor appointments, pharmacy errands, laundry, shower, dressing, eating, cooking, cleaning, stairs. I take each moment of energy used seriously. And lately I've had an hour or two a day. I can't possibly do it all.
I need to figure out what to say to my boss. My husband, who is out of town (and I didn't think about the additional items I need to do when he is away until now). I want to do it all, like I used to. And maybe someday again?? For now, what? Tell my boss I need time off. How much? What about the drop in income? We just replaced my car, which was on its last miles.
I need advice. I am constantly trying to figure out how to do things more efficiently. I'm tired and stressed from juggling all of the balls of priorities. One phone call means at least three, right?! One form turns into two (they lost it, didn't get filled out correctly, oops wrong form...)
What are the priorities? Is there anyone who helps with all of this? I am always asking. No support groups here. I have a counselor. I want my time spent wisely. And here I am between the rock and the hard place and I have no idea what to do. Or what's right. Or if there are other choices. And I am sitting here, in cowardice freeze. Thank you for all help, advice, etc.
If I take the time and energy for the extras like yoga, chiropractor, acupuncture, swimming, etc, that may help me stay in shape, have less pain, maybe think better, what time does that leave for work? What about my home? At what point do the scales say I need to clean the floors, bathrooms, eat, shower ahead of work? Does anyone care? Or does work come first? My husband can't take over everything. I get about 6 hours a day to do what I want and need. That includes energy working, calls, doctor appointments, pharmacy errands, laundry, shower, dressing, eating, cooking, cleaning, stairs. I take each moment of energy used seriously. And lately I've had an hour or two a day. I can't possibly do it all.
I need to figure out what to say to my boss. My husband, who is out of town (and I didn't think about the additional items I need to do when he is away until now). I want to do it all, like I used to. And maybe someday again?? For now, what? Tell my boss I need time off. How much? What about the drop in income? We just replaced my car, which was on its last miles.
I need advice. I am constantly trying to figure out how to do things more efficiently. I'm tired and stressed from juggling all of the balls of priorities. One phone call means at least three, right?! One form turns into two (they lost it, didn't get filled out correctly, oops wrong form...)
What are the priorities? Is there anyone who helps with all of this? I am always asking. No support groups here. I have a counselor. I want my time spent wisely. And here I am between the rock and the hard place and I have no idea what to do. Or what's right. Or if there are other choices. And I am sitting here, in cowardice freeze. Thank you for all help, advice, etc.
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