I was recently fired from my job of 9.5 years. The reason is I and a new manager were oil and water. No matter what I did, there was no common ground. Even though I was a vp, he was senior to me so I was the one to be let go.
Here is my issue. This is hitting me harder than I expected. I have never been fired in my life. Now here I am at 51 years old with MS feeling like I just can't go out there anymore into the work world. I simply want to hide and hiding is what I've been doing for over a month.
My MS is mostly cognitive. I am actually scheduled for more testing as I'm having issues with memory and recall. Working at the level I was at was mentally exhausting for me and the thought of going into a new work environment with the cognitive issues is terrifying to me. I am lucky that I have a wonderful and supportive husband who is not pushing me, but at the same time I have never not worked. So I also feel like a freeloader and very guilty for putting him through this.
How do I reconcile all of these conflicting emotions so I can be myself again?
Here is my issue. This is hitting me harder than I expected. I have never been fired in my life. Now here I am at 51 years old with MS feeling like I just can't go out there anymore into the work world. I simply want to hide and hiding is what I've been doing for over a month.
My MS is mostly cognitive. I am actually scheduled for more testing as I'm having issues with memory and recall. Working at the level I was at was mentally exhausting for me and the thought of going into a new work environment with the cognitive issues is terrifying to me. I am lucky that I have a wonderful and supportive husband who is not pushing me, but at the same time I have never not worked. So I also feel like a freeloader and very guilty for putting him through this.
How do I reconcile all of these conflicting emotions so I can be myself again?
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