I'm a very introverted individual in general who suffers with a lot of anxiety which doesn't help with the type of work I do. Throwing MS into the mix just complicates things as I'm sure it does for all of us.
I work in a call center (my dream job!...can't you just sense the sarcasm??!!!) scheduling appointments for a very busy hospital. I've been trying to tough it out until I could find something better. This was just a temporary fix...or at least it was supposed to be, but I have been there for over two years now as I'm finding it rather challenging to find another job.
I'm stressed out all the time and the job is only getting more and more stressful each and every day. The position requires lots of multi-tasking which I've always struggled with, but perhaps even more so now after being diagnosed with MS or maybe I just use it as an excuse? The job is starting to take a toll on me mentally and physically. I'm tired of being yelled at all day by angry patients and angry doctors too if you screw up their schedule. I'm noticing now that my memory isn't as good as it once was and I find myself forgetting words as I'm mid sentence talking with a patient on the phone. It's really embarrassing!! I'm only 32...this should not be happening.
Management is also getting stricter. My direct supervisor has already had a couple of conversations with me about where I stand. She's concerned with my work and notices my difficulty with multi-tasking. I've been given a few weeks to improve or i may be without a job. I had a hard time keeping it together and almost broke down and started crying in front of my supervisor. I came so close to disclosing my MS diagnosis, but something told me not to. So I didn't. We've been extra busy at work because we are drastically short staffed. So the pressure is really on those of us who are still there.
I dread going to work everyday. I no longer enjoy my weekends because I'm too busy worrying about the upcoming week. I leave work everyday mentally exhausted and so stressed out that I give myself a migraine. I cry every night and struggle every morning to get out of the bed because I'm just so fatigued. I don't know how much more of this I can take, but at the same time I'm worried about losing my job any day now. My mom tells me I'm going to give myself a heart attack. I don't know anymore if telling my supervisor about my MS is the right or wrong thing? I'm just anxious and depressed all the time now...not sure if it's because of my job or MS or a combination of both?
Anyway, this was just me venting.
I work in a call center (my dream job!...can't you just sense the sarcasm??!!!) scheduling appointments for a very busy hospital. I've been trying to tough it out until I could find something better. This was just a temporary fix...or at least it was supposed to be, but I have been there for over two years now as I'm finding it rather challenging to find another job.
I'm stressed out all the time and the job is only getting more and more stressful each and every day. The position requires lots of multi-tasking which I've always struggled with, but perhaps even more so now after being diagnosed with MS or maybe I just use it as an excuse? The job is starting to take a toll on me mentally and physically. I'm tired of being yelled at all day by angry patients and angry doctors too if you screw up their schedule. I'm noticing now that my memory isn't as good as it once was and I find myself forgetting words as I'm mid sentence talking with a patient on the phone. It's really embarrassing!! I'm only 32...this should not be happening.
Management is also getting stricter. My direct supervisor has already had a couple of conversations with me about where I stand. She's concerned with my work and notices my difficulty with multi-tasking. I've been given a few weeks to improve or i may be without a job. I had a hard time keeping it together and almost broke down and started crying in front of my supervisor. I came so close to disclosing my MS diagnosis, but something told me not to. So I didn't. We've been extra busy at work because we are drastically short staffed. So the pressure is really on those of us who are still there.
I dread going to work everyday. I no longer enjoy my weekends because I'm too busy worrying about the upcoming week. I leave work everyday mentally exhausted and so stressed out that I give myself a migraine. I cry every night and struggle every morning to get out of the bed because I'm just so fatigued. I don't know how much more of this I can take, but at the same time I'm worried about losing my job any day now. My mom tells me I'm going to give myself a heart attack. I don't know anymore if telling my supervisor about my MS is the right or wrong thing? I'm just anxious and depressed all the time now...not sure if it's because of my job or MS or a combination of both?
Anyway, this was just me venting.
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