hello,
i am 36 and have been a caregiver to my partner since i was 22. initially, medication meant my partner had a "normal" life for the first few years. then, she was let go from a position and we realized her cognitive/emotional issues were too much for her to maintain employment. she obtained ssdi after her 3rd try. she hasn't worked for about 10 years.
i've hobbled along. i had a stellar scholarly career until i idealistically believe i could manage home and work as a young caregiver with little work history.
two years ago after completing several years of post-bacc. education in engineering, my partner started relapsing out of control. her case is so aggressive, she has been documented and photographed by some of the top m.s. clinics in the country. i took her side in the hospital, advocating for aggressive care. we went from er to hospital to intensive rehab to nursing home to home care (with basically me filling in 24/7 as she was immobile by this time). then, there was talk of leaving our home, getting a hospital bed and equipment, and basically doing nothing but caregiving while living in low income disabled housing. i took to ClinicalTrials.gov to find her some kind of experimental treatment. and, i did! she ultimately participated in a clinical trial half way across the country. the treatment she received miraculously stabilized her and reversed all of the physical disability she had incurred over the year. i spent nearly every minute with her during her treatment and lengthy recovery.
after about 1.5 years of intensive round the clock caregiving, i came back to my home and felt lost. but, i pulled myself back up and tried to throw the same energy i had caring for my partner into getting a job. that was 2 years ago. to this day, i've had just a few interviews. i have tried networking through every friend, family member, college contact who might be able to help me get my foot in the door. i've applied at temp agencies, broadened my search to the entire nation, and even looked at interning. i've applied for everything from executive level jobs i could do and get paid well for to temp/contract minimum wage jobs with no benefits.
i feel like i am invisible. i work so hard. i care so much. but, nobody will hire me to even make coffee. i have worked at top medical schools. worked at a national non-profit launching/supporting multi-million dollar grant projects. and most recently as a manager at a local college.
i live in small town, so options are limited. but when i apply out-of-state i often hear that employers are looking for local candidates. i can't afford to move without a job, but i can't get a job in my little town after applying for just about everything that i am remotely qualified for. i sit all day at my computer applying for jobs and trying to network my way into an opportunity. now i just feel hopeless. if it wasn't for some modest family support i would be homeless with my partner. in fact, i worry about that becoming a reality some time down the road.
i don't know what to do. i just want someone to see how motivated and driven i am and give me a chance. have others dealt with this? what do you do?
i am 36 and have been a caregiver to my partner since i was 22. initially, medication meant my partner had a "normal" life for the first few years. then, she was let go from a position and we realized her cognitive/emotional issues were too much for her to maintain employment. she obtained ssdi after her 3rd try. she hasn't worked for about 10 years.
i've hobbled along. i had a stellar scholarly career until i idealistically believe i could manage home and work as a young caregiver with little work history.
two years ago after completing several years of post-bacc. education in engineering, my partner started relapsing out of control. her case is so aggressive, she has been documented and photographed by some of the top m.s. clinics in the country. i took her side in the hospital, advocating for aggressive care. we went from er to hospital to intensive rehab to nursing home to home care (with basically me filling in 24/7 as she was immobile by this time). then, there was talk of leaving our home, getting a hospital bed and equipment, and basically doing nothing but caregiving while living in low income disabled housing. i took to ClinicalTrials.gov to find her some kind of experimental treatment. and, i did! she ultimately participated in a clinical trial half way across the country. the treatment she received miraculously stabilized her and reversed all of the physical disability she had incurred over the year. i spent nearly every minute with her during her treatment and lengthy recovery.
after about 1.5 years of intensive round the clock caregiving, i came back to my home and felt lost. but, i pulled myself back up and tried to throw the same energy i had caring for my partner into getting a job. that was 2 years ago. to this day, i've had just a few interviews. i have tried networking through every friend, family member, college contact who might be able to help me get my foot in the door. i've applied at temp agencies, broadened my search to the entire nation, and even looked at interning. i've applied for everything from executive level jobs i could do and get paid well for to temp/contract minimum wage jobs with no benefits.
i feel like i am invisible. i work so hard. i care so much. but, nobody will hire me to even make coffee. i have worked at top medical schools. worked at a national non-profit launching/supporting multi-million dollar grant projects. and most recently as a manager at a local college.
i live in small town, so options are limited. but when i apply out-of-state i often hear that employers are looking for local candidates. i can't afford to move without a job, but i can't get a job in my little town after applying for just about everything that i am remotely qualified for. i sit all day at my computer applying for jobs and trying to network my way into an opportunity. now i just feel hopeless. if it wasn't for some modest family support i would be homeless with my partner. in fact, i worry about that becoming a reality some time down the road.
i don't know what to do. i just want someone to see how motivated and driven i am and give me a chance. have others dealt with this? what do you do?
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