I was born on this day in 1962, 31 minutes after midnight, and also, 31 minutes past my due date, and 9 months + 6 days after my parents' wedding. Today, I celebrate the 14th anniversary of my 39th birthday.
I make that choice, not because I don't wish to admit that I am 53, but, because my 39th birthday was the last birthday that I celebrated before I had MS. My 40th birthday occurred during a horrific flare, in which I was sometimes psychotic and I slept approximately 20 hours per day for about 2 months. During that flare, I also had major memory problems. I have never remembered more than two glimpses of events during those months.
One of those memories is a 40th birthday birthday party, which I thought was a surprise party. I later learned that I'd been told about it multiple times; I just forgot.
So, today, I am grateful for:
I make that choice, not because I don't wish to admit that I am 53, but, because my 39th birthday was the last birthday that I celebrated before I had MS. My 40th birthday occurred during a horrific flare, in which I was sometimes psychotic and I slept approximately 20 hours per day for about 2 months. During that flare, I also had major memory problems. I have never remembered more than two glimpses of events during those months.
One of those memories is a 40th birthday birthday party, which I thought was a surprise party. I later learned that I'd been told about it multiple times; I just forgot.
So, today, I am grateful for:
- 39 healthy years, prior to MS
- only one birthday where my health was as poor as it was on my 40th birthday
- 14 years of learning and growing as a person, as I've adjusted to my MS
- 14 years of friends and family also adjusting to MS and the ways it affects both me and them
- 53 years of life
- and a God who grieves with me when I am sad, rejoices with me when I am glad, and walks with me through both the good and the bad.
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