So I'm home from rehab, have been for two months. After getting kicked out of rehab for not making any progress, even though I walked for the first time in 16 months (that's not progress because it wasn't their goal for me).
Now I'm having home therapy which is not working at all. I've been home two months and haven't even been in the house! No one in rehab mentioned that my wheelchair wouldn't fit through any of the doors we're prepared me for that idea. So I'm living in the garage. Oh it's a very nice garage, it's finished it just has a garage door. But this is my world now.
I can't use the bedside commode. And that's a useless idea anyway since I require helped us to get on that and I can't get out of bed without someone there to keep an eye on me. My husband has been changing me, changing my diapers that is, and when it's poop, he throws up just about every time. Even though I have the best insurance, long-term home health care is not covered so this is the only option. He's a wreck, I'm a wreck and I'm not really alive, I'm the living dead. I don't get to get up out of bed every day like I'm supposed to to get in the wheelchair do things because there's just too much going on.
I need my husband has to work even though he works at home, now he's been forced to take on the full-time job that is me it addition to everything else he has to do. Right now I'm lying here needing to be changed with the diaper full of poop head pressure sores on my butt. He is sick and doesn't feel well and I'm waiting for him to feel better to come and change me. Then when he does he's going to throw up.
I have an even been in the house in six months. I don't get to see any of my pets. I have one little dog in here with me but I don't get to see my other dogs because there is never enough time for my husband to move things around so that they can come in here and visit. I don't get to see my birds.
And on top of all that, one week after I got home, my very favorite most special rabbit died and I had even seen him yet. My husband brought him in here and said he was not doing well and he died in my arms a half an hour later. Like that was my greatest nightmare. And then with all the comings and going as of therapists and nurses, his most beloved cat ran out the front door on my birthday no less, a month ago and she had never been outside before your life. We've mounted a massive search for her and today we have a canine team coming out to track her.
Then I ran out of my antidepressants A week ago and the pharmacist would not refill it due to a mixup. I have them again now but I spent a week in agony it's not over. I don't know how long it will take for them to start working again and even when they do I don't think it was enough, not a high enough dose.
There is absolutely no hope for me. Tysabri doesn't seem to be providing me with any dramatic recovery. At this point I can't even stand. So I'm 51 years old and looking at lifetime in bed while my husband is forced to take care of me which is so very hard for him.
Now I'm having home therapy which is not working at all. I've been home two months and haven't even been in the house! No one in rehab mentioned that my wheelchair wouldn't fit through any of the doors we're prepared me for that idea. So I'm living in the garage. Oh it's a very nice garage, it's finished it just has a garage door. But this is my world now.
I can't use the bedside commode. And that's a useless idea anyway since I require helped us to get on that and I can't get out of bed without someone there to keep an eye on me. My husband has been changing me, changing my diapers that is, and when it's poop, he throws up just about every time. Even though I have the best insurance, long-term home health care is not covered so this is the only option. He's a wreck, I'm a wreck and I'm not really alive, I'm the living dead. I don't get to get up out of bed every day like I'm supposed to to get in the wheelchair do things because there's just too much going on.
I need my husband has to work even though he works at home, now he's been forced to take on the full-time job that is me it addition to everything else he has to do. Right now I'm lying here needing to be changed with the diaper full of poop head pressure sores on my butt. He is sick and doesn't feel well and I'm waiting for him to feel better to come and change me. Then when he does he's going to throw up.
I have an even been in the house in six months. I don't get to see any of my pets. I have one little dog in here with me but I don't get to see my other dogs because there is never enough time for my husband to move things around so that they can come in here and visit. I don't get to see my birds.
And on top of all that, one week after I got home, my very favorite most special rabbit died and I had even seen him yet. My husband brought him in here and said he was not doing well and he died in my arms a half an hour later. Like that was my greatest nightmare. And then with all the comings and going as of therapists and nurses, his most beloved cat ran out the front door on my birthday no less, a month ago and she had never been outside before your life. We've mounted a massive search for her and today we have a canine team coming out to track her.
Then I ran out of my antidepressants A week ago and the pharmacist would not refill it due to a mixup. I have them again now but I spent a week in agony it's not over. I don't know how long it will take for them to start working again and even when they do I don't think it was enough, not a high enough dose.
There is absolutely no hope for me. Tysabri doesn't seem to be providing me with any dramatic recovery. At this point I can't even stand. So I'm 51 years old and looking at lifetime in bed while my husband is forced to take care of me which is so very hard for him.
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