I'm taking to antidepressants. Zoloft 200mgs, Trazedone 50mg. They work, I don't feel depressed for most of the day but when time comes, they seem to wear off. That's when I take them, at night. But I can always tell when it's time to take them because my mood start plummeting. And during the day, I feel like my very deep depression is very much still there but hiding behind a curtain, or like what the drugs really do, is just give me a veil to wear over my face so no one can see how depressed I really am. But I still am, I'm just able to put on a mask more easily.
Are there any antidepressants that actually work? Get rid of your depression, even behind the curtain? I guess I should see a psychiatrist, I have been seeing a psychologist while I was in rehab it will take me a while to start seeing her again. She agreed though but I have plenty very valid reasons, entirely aside from this disease, to really have a load of depression on me.
I had told her the number of times that I really feel like I have PTSD from some of the things that I've been through which most people could never handle. Then on top of all that is this disease, and I feel sometimes like the reason you know I'm crippled is because of the PTSD.
The last time I saw my regular doctor was almost 2 years ago, because I was home bound, she had put me on Prozac and one day I accidentally took double the dose. The way I found out about it was because suddenly I was really strong and walking around like everything was normal without even thinking about it. So I went back to her and told her that I would like to have my dose increased and why. She said that I was already taking the maximum dose and I couldn't take anymore than I already was and she said she doubted very much that was the Prozac causing me to feel so much stronger unless I had a really strong mind body connection. Just sitting there looking at her, I just wanted to scream "well of course I have a really strong mind body connection!" Without getting into that part of it, I should add that part of my occupation requires to be extremely in touch with myself, with my inner self and also my faith is a big part of that because it is basically the study your mind body connection, exactly that.
Then come to find out several months ago when I saw my new neurologist and requested to have a prescription for antidepressants, I told her about this experience with my regular doctor the year, before and I told her the dose that my doctor said was the maximum dose. My neurologist was exasperated and exclaimed, "that's not correct!" That dose that I had requested was not the maximum at all. So I think what it came down to was that my regular doctor did not want to deal with my depression and just wanted to send me off to a psychiatrist even though there's like only one in this county. So that's basically just brushing me off and saying it's not my problem.
Meanwhile, I suffered from debilitating depression for two years because she lied to me and couldn't be bothered. And now I'm just a shadow of who I was.
Are there any antidepressants that actually work? Get rid of your depression, even behind the curtain? I guess I should see a psychiatrist, I have been seeing a psychologist while I was in rehab it will take me a while to start seeing her again. She agreed though but I have plenty very valid reasons, entirely aside from this disease, to really have a load of depression on me.
I had told her the number of times that I really feel like I have PTSD from some of the things that I've been through which most people could never handle. Then on top of all that is this disease, and I feel sometimes like the reason you know I'm crippled is because of the PTSD.
The last time I saw my regular doctor was almost 2 years ago, because I was home bound, she had put me on Prozac and one day I accidentally took double the dose. The way I found out about it was because suddenly I was really strong and walking around like everything was normal without even thinking about it. So I went back to her and told her that I would like to have my dose increased and why. She said that I was already taking the maximum dose and I couldn't take anymore than I already was and she said she doubted very much that was the Prozac causing me to feel so much stronger unless I had a really strong mind body connection. Just sitting there looking at her, I just wanted to scream "well of course I have a really strong mind body connection!" Without getting into that part of it, I should add that part of my occupation requires to be extremely in touch with myself, with my inner self and also my faith is a big part of that because it is basically the study your mind body connection, exactly that.
Then come to find out several months ago when I saw my new neurologist and requested to have a prescription for antidepressants, I told her about this experience with my regular doctor the year, before and I told her the dose that my doctor said was the maximum dose. My neurologist was exasperated and exclaimed, "that's not correct!" That dose that I had requested was not the maximum at all. So I think what it came down to was that my regular doctor did not want to deal with my depression and just wanted to send me off to a psychiatrist even though there's like only one in this county. So that's basically just brushing me off and saying it's not my problem.
Meanwhile, I suffered from debilitating depression for two years because she lied to me and couldn't be bothered. And now I'm just a shadow of who I was.
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