Hello, I am reaching out to a family here who "gets it"'
I am Trying soooo hard to live a good life, my best life. To do more than exist. I am single, and I see myself shutting down. I keep fighting... reading, juicing, trying to maintain hope and gratitude for what I do have. But I am SOOO TIRED. My best friend was recently given 6 months to live. I was with him when the words spilled from the doctors mouth. Besides my own pain and denial, I really wanted to grab hold of those 6 months. I wanted to fulfill his life's dream, but it also made me to really want to LIVE.
I don't want to give my dreams, my 6 months, my life over to MS. BUT how??
How terrible is this... I wish I could hire a friend. Someone who could understand and help with coordination and brain power. Someone who could help with my hurdles and when I am really lonely and scared...hold my hand. Someone who could help coordinate a really good 6 month dream!
Gosh it's so frustrating!
I think I am missing my self, missing my friend, feeling scared and lonely.
Thanks for listening... I'm needing virtual hugs
I am Trying soooo hard to live a good life, my best life. To do more than exist. I am single, and I see myself shutting down. I keep fighting... reading, juicing, trying to maintain hope and gratitude for what I do have. But I am SOOO TIRED. My best friend was recently given 6 months to live. I was with him when the words spilled from the doctors mouth. Besides my own pain and denial, I really wanted to grab hold of those 6 months. I wanted to fulfill his life's dream, but it also made me to really want to LIVE.
I don't want to give my dreams, my 6 months, my life over to MS. BUT how??
How terrible is this... I wish I could hire a friend. Someone who could understand and help with coordination and brain power. Someone who could help with my hurdles and when I am really lonely and scared...hold my hand. Someone who could help coordinate a really good 6 month dream!
Gosh it's so frustrating!
I think I am missing my self, missing my friend, feeling scared and lonely.
Thanks for listening... I'm needing virtual hugs
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