I swear, I can never catch a break and I'm sick of it. My family has been helping me financially and then I was forced into working full time for my dad. It's not enough and I'm going to run out of money to pay my house payment within 6 months. It's so stressful and I have no idea what I can do.
Ever since I started working (actually way before), my fatigue has been out of this world. All I think about is sleeping, but I somehow force myself to stay awake ( no idea how though). Things are getting so bad, I'm constantly forgetting everything. I can't even remember something long enough to write it down when a pen is already in my hand. This is with everything though, not just at work. I also can't walk very far and my legs randomly give out every day. It's amazing my last fall was over a year ago.
My family promised to help me and said I wouldn't lose my house. My IRA is paying the house payment and I pay everything else, with the exception of my medical bills. Now I'm being told I need to get a real job (I guess the one I'm doing is fake). They want me to go back into nursing, which would be fine if I could, but with my condition, I don't see how that would be possible. They also give me crap about not even looking. They're right. I don't look. I don't have the energy to look by the time I get home. Sometimes I don't even know how I make it home in one piece!
I've tried to tell them that my mind isn't what it used to be since I seem to forget everything, but it seems to go in one ear and right out the other. If I even mention how terrible I feel without being able to nap, they will just say cry me a river. Gee, thanks for the support. Trying to get them to understand is impossible and I give up. They just think I'm being a lazy bum and mooching off of them everything I can. I wish! I also have to hear about how my mom is such a gimp with her arthritic knee, even though my movement thanks to ms makes her arthritis look like a joke!
I wish I could separate myself from them, but I can't. As my resources are dwindling down to nothing, I don't know what I can do. For having a supposed support system, I feel like none exists. I don't even know what kind of options I would have to make it in this world. All I do know is I'm sick of everyone asking for donations all the time when I don't even have a dime to my name. Thanks, ms. I'm so glad you've come to destroy my life.
Ever since I started working (actually way before), my fatigue has been out of this world. All I think about is sleeping, but I somehow force myself to stay awake ( no idea how though). Things are getting so bad, I'm constantly forgetting everything. I can't even remember something long enough to write it down when a pen is already in my hand. This is with everything though, not just at work. I also can't walk very far and my legs randomly give out every day. It's amazing my last fall was over a year ago.
My family promised to help me and said I wouldn't lose my house. My IRA is paying the house payment and I pay everything else, with the exception of my medical bills. Now I'm being told I need to get a real job (I guess the one I'm doing is fake). They want me to go back into nursing, which would be fine if I could, but with my condition, I don't see how that would be possible. They also give me crap about not even looking. They're right. I don't look. I don't have the energy to look by the time I get home. Sometimes I don't even know how I make it home in one piece!
I've tried to tell them that my mind isn't what it used to be since I seem to forget everything, but it seems to go in one ear and right out the other. If I even mention how terrible I feel without being able to nap, they will just say cry me a river. Gee, thanks for the support. Trying to get them to understand is impossible and I give up. They just think I'm being a lazy bum and mooching off of them everything I can. I wish! I also have to hear about how my mom is such a gimp with her arthritic knee, even though my movement thanks to ms makes her arthritis look like a joke!
I wish I could separate myself from them, but I can't. As my resources are dwindling down to nothing, I don't know what I can do. For having a supposed support system, I feel like none exists. I don't even know what kind of options I would have to make it in this world. All I do know is I'm sick of everyone asking for donations all the time when I don't even have a dime to my name. Thanks, ms. I'm so glad you've come to destroy my life.
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