I have never been a big drinker. I never liked not being in complete control. Even though no one's accusing me of being drunk lately it feels like I am constantly trying to prove I am not "drunk".
Between all the doctor visits that feel like a roadside sobriety test where I am asked to walk a straight line, follow his pen with my eyes and touch his finger and then my nose, and sometimes struggling to make a coherent sentence or walk without loosing my balance, it seems I am in a constant state of "drunkenness" and I have no control!
I can't even tell a joke because I can't control my laughing enough to tell the punch line! Gone are the days of keeping a straight face or never letting people see me cry cuz I can't control that either.
I am only 6 months into my MS journey and still trying to figure it all out but I am slowly starting to laugh more than I cry. At least my new "drunken" like state provides lots of laughs because what else can I do but laugh.
Between all the doctor visits that feel like a roadside sobriety test where I am asked to walk a straight line, follow his pen with my eyes and touch his finger and then my nose, and sometimes struggling to make a coherent sentence or walk without loosing my balance, it seems I am in a constant state of "drunkenness" and I have no control!
I can't even tell a joke because I can't control my laughing enough to tell the punch line! Gone are the days of keeping a straight face or never letting people see me cry cuz I can't control that either.
I am only 6 months into my MS journey and still trying to figure it all out but I am slowly starting to laugh more than I cry. At least my new "drunken" like state provides lots of laughs because what else can I do but laugh.
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