Which we all know is "normal" when we live with MS.
However, over the past year despite having stable MRI's my cognitative abilities are declining along with my typing ability. I work as a buyer and my boss has been riding me and has written me up twice for not being able to meet my metrics.
I have met with her and our HR rep - I asked for some accomodations - an ergonomic review of my workstation, the possibility (due to my problems with "processing" due to the MS) to slightly lower my metrics vs. non affected members of the department and because of fatigue and coordination issues to have the ability to work from home a couple days a week.
The only accomodation she would agree to was the ergonomic study and she told me that our department couldn't afford to purchase a large keyed keyboard to make typing easier I'm on FMLA -interestingly my boss had no problems with me until I disclosed I had MS. (she has fibromyalgia and is off/out of the office many days of the month).
In September 2012, she put me on a performance improvement plan - we were supposed to meet weekly to review my performance - she didn't show up for any of the weekly meetings. In October, I was off for three days (I also have Meniere's disease) and the moment I came back she pulled me into the office and told me she needed to sign the performance paperwork (I had signed this when she put me on it initally in September).
She argued with me that she had not filled it out, I went and got my copy which showed that she had put it in place for 60 days on September 1st. So technically it should have finished on November 1st, but she failed to have any weekly meetings with me, due to her absences. She extended it until end of December. She was supposed to meet with me on 11/2 and again today and nothing.
In the meanwhile, I did have a neuropsychological evaluation that did show that I have significant impairment in the right hemisphere of my brain and that my processing and memory capabilities are significantly diminished. The neuropsychologist and my therapist both want me to consider looking at LTD.
I'm terrified by this. I moved from Cleveland in early 2011 for this job and the neurologists here in SW Ohio are nowhere near the caliber of those at the Mellen Center. After getting the report, I'm not able to get in to see my neurologist until January 2013, and realize I am going to need her support to apply for this.
I am just now getting stabilized from the move (I moved due to my husband of 20+ years wanting a divorce, which blindsided me) and working at this job which has been a struggle because of my boss and other staff in the department are difficult to work with. (not just my feeling - a number of people I know in the hospital ask how I can work for her and she has scored poorly in employee performance ratings for the past 3 years apparently. Look up micromanager in the dictionary, she's there). I've watched three of my coworkers leave for other positions and her administrative assistant left just last week, so I know its just not me.
I would appreciate everyone's input on what I need to do next - I'm feeling paralyzed by all of the recent events and while I wasn't thrilled to get the information from the neuropsych eval, at least it validated that I was crazy and there was an "organic" reason for my struggling so hard. I really frightened myself - one of the departments I buy for called to ask why their orders had been cancelled - when I went to look at the record, I HAD cancelled them but had no memory of why, so its getting worse.
Sorry for running so long, but I really am afraid and have no friends or family in the area - and only a brother who is very wrapped up with his own issues living in KY.
Thanks for any input.
Regards,
Sparticle
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
However, over the past year despite having stable MRI's my cognitative abilities are declining along with my typing ability. I work as a buyer and my boss has been riding me and has written me up twice for not being able to meet my metrics.
I have met with her and our HR rep - I asked for some accomodations - an ergonomic review of my workstation, the possibility (due to my problems with "processing" due to the MS) to slightly lower my metrics vs. non affected members of the department and because of fatigue and coordination issues to have the ability to work from home a couple days a week.
The only accomodation she would agree to was the ergonomic study and she told me that our department couldn't afford to purchase a large keyed keyboard to make typing easier I'm on FMLA -interestingly my boss had no problems with me until I disclosed I had MS. (she has fibromyalgia and is off/out of the office many days of the month).
In September 2012, she put me on a performance improvement plan - we were supposed to meet weekly to review my performance - she didn't show up for any of the weekly meetings. In October, I was off for three days (I also have Meniere's disease) and the moment I came back she pulled me into the office and told me she needed to sign the performance paperwork (I had signed this when she put me on it initally in September).
She argued with me that she had not filled it out, I went and got my copy which showed that she had put it in place for 60 days on September 1st. So technically it should have finished on November 1st, but she failed to have any weekly meetings with me, due to her absences. She extended it until end of December. She was supposed to meet with me on 11/2 and again today and nothing.
In the meanwhile, I did have a neuropsychological evaluation that did show that I have significant impairment in the right hemisphere of my brain and that my processing and memory capabilities are significantly diminished. The neuropsychologist and my therapist both want me to consider looking at LTD.
I'm terrified by this. I moved from Cleveland in early 2011 for this job and the neurologists here in SW Ohio are nowhere near the caliber of those at the Mellen Center. After getting the report, I'm not able to get in to see my neurologist until January 2013, and realize I am going to need her support to apply for this.
I am just now getting stabilized from the move (I moved due to my husband of 20+ years wanting a divorce, which blindsided me) and working at this job which has been a struggle because of my boss and other staff in the department are difficult to work with. (not just my feeling - a number of people I know in the hospital ask how I can work for her and she has scored poorly in employee performance ratings for the past 3 years apparently. Look up micromanager in the dictionary, she's there). I've watched three of my coworkers leave for other positions and her administrative assistant left just last week, so I know its just not me.
I would appreciate everyone's input on what I need to do next - I'm feeling paralyzed by all of the recent events and while I wasn't thrilled to get the information from the neuropsych eval, at least it validated that I was crazy and there was an "organic" reason for my struggling so hard. I really frightened myself - one of the departments I buy for called to ask why their orders had been cancelled - when I went to look at the record, I HAD cancelled them but had no memory of why, so its getting worse.
Sorry for running so long, but I really am afraid and have no friends or family in the area - and only a brother who is very wrapped up with his own issues living in KY.
Thanks for any input.
Regards,
Sparticle
** Moderator's note - Post broken into paragraphs for easier reading. Many people with MS have visual difficulties that prevent them from reading large blocks of print. **
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